Tothevoidwithyethoughts - Vent Sb

I don’t think there is a worse feeling than realising no one is listening to your story

“It’s unfortunate that we live in such a technologically consumed world that when we try to sincerely speak we get tuned out because people are so tuned in to their devices.”

— -m.b. justalittlewildflower

Not sure if I'll ever come to terms with the heartbreak inherent in change.

It's so lonely and alienating, to be the person that doesn't have friends. I try to be friends with people, i see people i think it would be cool to have them as friends, and although from the outside it seems like we're friends. We talk, do projects together in school and stuff, it's only because I seek them out, if I don't talk to them and don't put out the first step always, they just let me fade into the background. I seek out their friendship, but they don't seek out mine, they seek out each others and I'm just there. I SoSoSo deeply wish to meet that person who will seek out me, who sees me and in the same way I think, they think "they looks nice, I would like to be their friend, I wonder what they think" and put out the first step, make the first effort and mutually continue the effort. Because I'm tired, I'm hallow, my throat is closing up, I don't want to make the first step anymore, i made the first step my whole life, when is someone make it towards me, when do I find that person who sees me.

my life just is [gets traumatized] [gets traumatized] [gets traumatized] [gets

Your recovery is not erased because you had a setback. You are not starting over at 0. You already learned a lot. Keep going.

I could function in a society that had an actual nightlife that isn't synonymous with just clubbing. Where are the night markets what if I want to go to the library at midnight

fuck i completely forgot i need to curl up on my couch and scroll my phone for six hours. can we reschedule