You Might Have Disappointed Some People; This Doesn’t Mean You Are A Disappointment.

Artist: Stormy Gail Art

my life just is [gets traumatized] [gets traumatized] [gets traumatized] [gets

Billboards on the roads. Product jingles on the radio. Sponsors and ads in the middle of basically every podcast and video. Unskippable previews at the start of physical media. Ads plastered all over any website you visit. Cookies being mandatory to use the modern internet. Scrolling past a dozen ads just to get to the recipe you looked up. Presorted junk mail sent to you ad nauseam. Subscription selling on packaging tape and cardboard boxes. Spam callers. Video game sale. Limited time deal. Buy it now! Hurry in! Impress your friends! Show your loved ones you appreciate them by spending all your money on them! Fill the seething void of having to hear ads every fucking waking moment of your life by spending money! Buy our product! Buy this drink! Be healthy! Get this amazing body! Get this great look! Impress everyone with the things you own! Come home after your grueling job to watch television that's interrupted every 10 minutes by 5 minutes of ads! Airplanes with banners and drones filling the night sky telling you to go here and buy this! Company names lining the boards of every sporting event! Brand logos on most clothing that turn its wearer into an unpaid advertiser! Fuck capitalism! Fuck this constant fucking bombardment of ads telling you if you just buy this one thing then you'll finally be happy!

It's so lonely and alienating, to be the person that doesn't have friends. I try to be friends with people, i see people i think it would be cool to have them as friends, and although from the outside it seems like we're friends. We talk, do projects together in school and stuff, it's only because I seek them out, if I don't talk to them and don't put out the first step always, they just let me fade into the background. I seek out their friendship, but they don't seek out mine, they seek out each others and I'm just there. I SoSoSo deeply wish to meet that person who will seek out me, who sees me and in the same way I think, they think "they looks nice, I would like to be their friend, I wonder what they think" and put out the first step, make the first effort and mutually continue the effort. Because I'm tired, I'm hallow, my throat is closing up, I don't want to make the first step anymore, i made the first step my whole life, when is someone make it towards me, when do I find that person who sees me.

i wish my brain didn't do that thing where i do something that annoys someone i care about and it gets paranoid that it's going to destroy our relationship

apologies for the shitty screenshot + repost from r/philosophymemes but YEAH and I love the way this is worded

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i hate tolerating smth for so long then reaching ur breaking point before u can actually do anything to change the situation so now ur just gonna be an asshole all the time bc ur past the point of being able to just ignore all the bullshit that goes on here.

fuck i completely forgot i need to curl up on my couch and scroll my phone for six hours. can we reschedule

I’m really ready to just throw in the towel. I have no fight left in me. I can’t take the pain anymore. I can’t take the sorrow and sadness anymore. I can’t take life anymore. Everyone says it gets better, but it keeps getting worse, and theoretically speaking-shouldn’t it be possible that it truly doesn’t get better for everyone?