I Wish My Brain Didn't Do That Thing Where I Do Something That Annoys Someone I Care About And It Gets

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people (mostly on twitter) are pissing me off so much with the "its reddit, who cares"

like, its not a social media, its a collection of forums, if you hate certain subs for their politics or opinions, dont visit those (you control the buttons you press or whatever)

meanwhile were about to lose so much information about niche hobbies and interests,

and these are the same people who were complaining last week that you cant find anything on google without adding "reddit" at the end,

are you fucking stupid, do you want to have to look through unrelated blogs and ai generated/pay walled quora answers everytime you need technical assistance or wanna talk about a hobby? is that what you want?

im this close to losing it

the thing is i’ve been on tumblr since 2008 - i’m not a reddit refugee - but it’s depressing to me to think of reddit being abandoned because i do think it fills a niche that tumblr can’t fill… they are two very different sites and reddit allowed for immersion into a topic in a way tumblr just … doesn’t.

we can all be interested in scrapbooking, for example, and we can all post about scrapbooking, but reddit allows for a conversation about scrapbooking that spans ten pages and it allows people to stick to that topic for however long they want and it’ll be accessible to everyone - and it will be on a scrapbooking subreddit that makes it easy to find so people could always find the scrapbooking conversations. it’s a site that allows you to ask a question and get hundreds of answers! and that’s just not the culture of tumblr.

get it together reddit.

the peace of coming to terms with being everyone's second choice is quite disturbing, actually.

fuck i completely forgot i need to curl up on my couch and scroll my phone for six hours. can we reschedule

It feels like I’ve just dropped off the face of the Earth to my so-called friends; no one ever acknowledges me anymore, and when they do, it’s when they need something from me. It fucking sucks. 

Friends who

Don’t ignore you……damn i wonder what that feels like

For anyone who might need this:

No, the simple task you're debating with your body to do is not a test of fate, or the gods. It will not prove your dedication, it will not set you on the wrong math if you don't do it.

It's you, alone, against the world. One good action at a time.

If you're used to not having your needs met or not having your dreams/desires fulfilled, it's very likely that everytime you wish for something you don't belive it will ever happen to you. Maybe to others, but not to you. It has a lot to do with having been taught (even unconsciously, by always having been told "no") that you're not good enough to have what you want or wish for or need.

But that's not the reality of things. You're worthy, at least to try and believe you can have it. Maybe you won't have it all or you'll have something it in a different form (not everything is made for us and not is the way we wish it to be) but you are totally worth enough to allow yourself to try your best and get it. Life will let you know what it really is for you but don't stop yourself before even trying. Don't ever see not making it as a failure or as a confirmation of your unworthiness: that is not what it is about. Maybe you cannot have one thing but you'll have another (the same way you probably weren't good in math at school but were amazing in PE: it depends, it doesn't mean you're not worthy or lovable). You deserve to gift this chance to yourself. Try to believe a bit more: at least you will be able to say you have tried and sooner or later you'll finally have what you want. It's a matter of building trust, hope and believe in your own worth first and foremost: practice will make it better.