Literally Cannot Emphasize Enough That My #1 Writing Advice Is To Stop Being Afraid. Stop Being Afraid

It's so lonely and alienating, to be the person that doesn't have friends. I try to be friends with people, i see people i think it would be cool to have them as friends, and although from the outside it seems like we're friends. We talk, do projects together in school and stuff, it's only because I seek them out, if I don't talk to them and don't put out the first step always, they just let me fade into the background. I seek out their friendship, but they don't seek out mine, they seek out each others and I'm just there. I SoSoSo deeply wish to meet that person who will seek out me, who sees me and in the same way I think, they think "they looks nice, I would like to be their friend, I wonder what they think" and put out the first step, make the first effort and mutually continue the effort. Because I'm tired, I'm hallow, my throat is closing up, I don't want to make the first step anymore, i made the first step my whole life, when is someone make it towards me, when do I find that person who sees me.

Friends who

Don’t ignore you……damn i wonder what that feels like

The urge to fall back into all of my bad habits because i am too tired and they feel familiar.

You know what really makes you feel awful? Getting ignored. Everywhere. I know that my friends tend to easily get side-tracked but whenever they actually have a conversation I get ignored. I joined a server recently and I get ignored there too. *sigh* just kinda feels like I can’t get a break, you know? Since I have problems venting to people too, I do it here cause a) no one sees it and b) twitter is an asshole for having a character limit. Does anyone else feel ignored? It sucks, I know. Feel free to talk to me if you feel that way. I dont want other people feeling ignored.

Stop leaving me on "seen". Stop leaving me on "seen". Stop leaving me on "seen". Stop leaving me on "seen". Stop leaving me on "seen". Stop leaving me on "seen". STOP FUCKING LEAVING ME ON "SEEN" AND TALK TO ME, DAMN IT!!!

the peace of coming to terms with being everyone's second choice is quite disturbing, actually.

It's so weird watching the internet enter into this period of major anti-consumer changes which will almost certainly give birth to new alternative sites that will become the new juggernauts of the internet, or some new age of consumerist horror never before seem.

Between the Tumblr porn ban, reddit blackout, Twitter's implosion, TikTok threatening to be banned every other month, Netflix cutting off sharing, nothing seems stable anymore.

I'm just pack rat hoarding and copying down all the life-tips, artists names, resources, and shop names I love before it's parent site inevitably falls into the abyss

Does anyone even care

people (mostly on twitter) are pissing me off so much with the "its reddit, who cares"

like, its not a social media, its a collection of forums, if you hate certain subs for their politics or opinions, dont visit those (you control the buttons you press or whatever)

meanwhile were about to lose so much information about niche hobbies and interests,

and these are the same people who were complaining last week that you cant find anything on google without adding "reddit" at the end,

are you fucking stupid, do you want to have to look through unrelated blogs and ai generated/pay walled quora answers everytime you need technical assistance or wanna talk about a hobby? is that what you want?

im this close to losing it