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Hey so wtaf is wrong with you????

care to elaborate?

TW for disassociation/derealisation, very very vague mention of sh !!

does anyone else get super angry and scared when they disassociate? i haven’t got DID but i still disassociate due to childhood trauma and it really fucking makes me so so so paranoid, and terrified. it’s not even mild fear, it’s like a stab through the chest and breaking out in a sweat sometimes. and then i get pissed when i can’t control it/have no control over when i’m gonna “come back” from it. most of the time i’m numb to it, it’s normal, but i can either be disassociated for days or months at a time to being fine until BAM it hits me again. and then the only way i can feel real is … yk …

i hope other people do experience this because i sometimes feel like i’m being too dramatic/faking it which … makes me feel worse .

i am going to talk to someone i PROMISE—