Trauma Survivor - Blog Posts

I was made from mismatched pieces,

God's leftovers,

A warrior's heart,

And a dreamer's mind

And a gentle soul

And a chaotic existence.

Then they shoved me in this tiny little useless body, and sent me into battle.

Without ever teaching me to fight,

Or bothering with armour.

—I was never meant to survive, was I?

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I'm don't think I'm a person,

Anymore.

I'm likely just a place

For daydreams to rest before

Finding someplace better now.

But is that something to mourn when I never truly knew,

What being human felt like...

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I was raised to gobble on harsh words only,

My food pipe has stretched to swallow slanders,

My stomach has a special kind of acid to melt metal;

And my intestines are meant to grind any remaining matter to fine dust.

How to deal with kind words?

Of that, I have no idea.

Are they supposed to loll in my mouth like caramel candy

Or melt like chocolate?

Will the honey sting if it touches my bleeding tongue?

It will be lost between the blood and spit before reaching my stomach anyway.

—Be gentle with me please.

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If you're looking to like me,

Don't go looking under my skin.

There are stories there that even I have forgotten I buried.

I'm made of molecules old as this universe, and Sometimes under my skin; it shows.

There exist hidden acloves you may never find your your way back.

And some black holes that stare back at you.

Be safe in my heart instead,

Where the carefully curated kindness and empathy and sunshine personality is kept.

Under my skin is where I store the behind the scenes stuff;

The scars and the traumas.

But if you're looking to love me;

Well, enter at your own risk.

—i just hope I don't disappoint.

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I don't know if God is real but if they are...

they aren't loving because if they were a loving god I wouldn't be so cold and rude.

ME

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This flag is exclusive for those who have religious trauma, doesn’t matter what type of religious trauma. Just literally has to be religious trauma.

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[Tagging] @radiomogai, @liom-archive, @mad-pride, and @accessmogai

guys the tag was literally made for DID/OSDD/CDD FOLKS ONLY PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM IT!!!! you already have pluralpink why the fuck do you need to steal ours now??? istg it's not funny anymore how you whine about being excluded everywhere and having nowhere to go MEANWHILE YOU LITERALLY STEAL OUR SPACES and invade every single trauma survivors tag!!!!

if you want to be respected for what you are, STOP TAKING TERMS AND TAGS THAT ARE NOT YOURS. MAKE YOUR OWN

I was just thinking about how weird it was that my mother never let me have a job, she was so against me working. and then I realized:

I had a job. She didn't want me to waste time flipping burgers when she could be pimping me out. That was my job, to her.

My sense of self and understanding of my own situation is so shattered that it's taken me like 15 years to even put that together.