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Just threw my guts up and I lost weight^^
two days ago I was 194 now I’m 188
best day ever
still a lot but like during last summer I bindgee so much I went from 176-210 and it just got worse until January my ass locked back in
so sense January I’ve gone from 215-188 and I lost most of it in April!! Like beginning of April I was 204 now I’m here
IM SO HAPPY
I’m getting close to my first gw of 170
Mmmm laxatives
Why can’t I just be happy and clean for once and my life
It feels like anytime I start feeling better it all goes downhill again and again
I feel horrible every fucking day not just because of my own mind but because I hate being around everyone
I hate having friends, I hate going to school and I can’t STAND the people around me in my classes
why do they always stare at me? What have I done to get this attention? I dont care if I look “different” keep your fucking eyes to yourself creeps!!!
I feel horrible about feeling this way towards my friends but it feels like I’m the odd man out always! I can’t communicate right, my words get jumbled and my thoughts don’t work!
I feel so alone all the time. I just want to meet ONE person who understands me and who I feel comfortable with and myself!
A thought I always have is “Why can’t I find the Nick to my Charlie?” Which is cringey but it would make me so fucking happy. I want what they have and how their life turns out no matter how hard it was for each other they stayed
I just wanna starve alone in my room at this point. It’s all I can think about, starving and finally being pretty
Maybe I’d find my person if I looked the part? And not even just that I want to feel pretty for myself for once. God do I hate food, it only causes pain
I just want to stop feeling bad. I wanna feel clean and pretty without the guilt of just looking at myself!
How life’s been feeling lately.
I want a perfect body. I’d do anything.
Credits to the owner, I got it from Pinterest !
