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I hope Essek never stops using stupid ass aliases. Okay (es)SE(k)TH(elyss) or Lord Lord from Around or Barry Beacon or Drew Krymm you've successfully tricked me

Isn't he just amazing

song of the day!

sorry for missing yesterday’s sotd, I had a really hectic flight home bc my plane got rerouted and I missed my connecting flight 😭

anyway, we have jon vibes and pov mag 200:

day 63-  Ramblings of a Lunatic {Bears In Trees}

day 64- Arms Tonite {Mother Mother}

hi hello good morning

Good morning all I did not sleep and also I ate mold on accident, by the way I had an idea for a sickfic with heavymedic in it and accidentally came up with a universe around it based on “I’m gonna like the way you fight” (vaguely, just the way the mercs r sorta sorted ykno? like its cool af how oc mercs are introduced)

anyways I still need a name for BLU Heavy. BLU Medic is named Kaspar! The REDs are referred to by their base class names or their first names, the BLU’s are on a first name basis for now to help distinguish between characters.

If anyone has name ideas for Heavy i’d love to hear em!

tagged by @ipackmycase

rules: tag 10 followers you want to know better!

nickname: Jack

birthday: April 25th

star sign: Taurus ♉

gender: Cisgender female

height: 5′4 1/2

favorite color: Grey/Gray

time right now: 6:31 AM

average hours of sleep: 6-12 (approximate values only)

lucky number: 9

last thing I googled: Yankee. I wanted confirmation that it was a proper noun, capitalization and all, because where I came from it was more of a dirty word, haha. And who capitalizes those?

favorite fictional character: Mm, I'm really not inclined to make value judgments along the lines of "favorite" much, especially since tastes can change with the hours sometimes... for now, though, let's say it's Julian Bashir. (Don't click the link if you're not ready to clap eyes on some serious season five ST: DS9 spoilers.) There are multitudes in him, all beautiful.

favorite famous person: I'm more than passing fond of Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson these days.

favorite book: Dune

favorite band: EXID are topping my list at the moment – their MVs are a visual glut frame after frame and so conceptually clever, I can't get enough of them.

song stuck in my head right now: Stars are Stars - Echo and The Bunnymen

last movie I watched: The Best Offer

last tv show I watched: Hit & Miss

dream trip: Las Vegas, Nevada!ﾟ~*☆ But not for the usual casino-centered reasons - I'm thinking more along the lines of a sightseeing tour of as many nearby Fallout: New Vegas ingame locations as I could swing in one go, haha. Goodsprings, Nipton, Cottonwood Cove, Red Rock Canyon, The Old Mormon Fort, Searchlight... there are just gads of them to choose from.

dream job: Anything most efficiently done unpartnered, and back-end enough to preclude talking to clients or customers, that requires constant movement and physical exertion... oh, and that calls for NO MORE THAN FORTY HOURS A WEEK. Late/midnight/graveyard shift a plus.

I was tagged by @earlgreytea68

Countries I have lived in: 

The United States. I've never so much as been out of it. I live in Michigan and haven't even taken the drive to Canada.

Favorite fandom fandoms: 

Fallout, The Elder Scrolls, Star Trek, Star Wars, Sherlock Holmes (ACD to BBC to Elementary), Hannibal...

Languages I speak: 

*average American voice* English. Just English.

Favorite film of 2016: 

I’m not much for playing of-the-year favorites in general, but especially with four months left. I did see Star Trek Beyond in theaters three times, though; it soothed something wounded in my Trekkie heart.

Last article you read: 

"What to do when you're not the hero anymore" by Laurie Penny

Shuffle your library and put the first three songs here: 

Cherry Blossom - Lana Dey Rey, What You Won't Do for Love - Bobby Caldwell, How's This? - Hyuna

Last thing you bought online: 

A set of two acrylic tortoiseshell combs and the ten dollarest bottle of rose soliflore perfume I could find.

Any phobias or fears: 

As the not-at-all good Doctor said in Hannibal, "Children transport us to our childhood." For that reason, being around young children for any length of time is... wearing, for me, to put it lightly.

How would your friends describe you: 

"That's what I like about you, you're logical". "Jack's a sweetheart". "Delightful. Quiet, but delightful." "Bona fide."

How would your enemies describe you: 

Pretentious ("gives herself airs"), rude, argumentative, unreliable, dishonest.

Who would you take a bullet for: 

Oh, probably the usual suspects? Family, friends, my S.O. There's really no accurately predicting what you'll actually do in a situation like that, though, if I've learned anything about shock.

If you had money to spare, what you would buy first: 

The best damn eleventh anniversary gift I could lay my hands on.

Now tag 10 people you want to get to know better:

A Tag Thing

Tagged by: @sunderlorn

Rules: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better. Being that ass friend who may or may not return your messages or even see your tags half the time I can't in good conscience bring myself to ask anyone to write anything. *sweats*

Relationship status: Committed, monogamous, etc., for the last ten (and a half or so) years.

Wake-up time: I'm unemployed at the moment, and've been that often enough for the way my sleeping schedule abruptly ceases to exist every time it happens to be downright predictable. Between that and my tendency to oversleep, lately it's been any hour of the day from about 10 A.M. to 10 P.M. Yesterday it was 8:30 PM. On the bright side, my cat appreciates the opportunity to lie on top of me at novel hours.

Cats or dogs: Cats. It's embarrassing, but I've never been able to repress my disgust for the distinctive stench that just wafts off dogs - the way it lingers on your hands after touching them sends me sidling off to the nearest sink to scrub it away as soon as I politely can. And that's leaving their breath aside... which wouldn't be nearly as much of an issue if they all didn't insist on licking every accessible inch of exposed skin on your body. Why, dogs? Why.

Call or text: Text. I'm soft-spoken and have a bit of an accent, so all the cell distortion and crackling over the lines doesn't do me any favors.

Chapstick or lipstick: Chapstick or balm, tinted ideally. I want it to be lipstick, but I can't hack wearing it. It's harder than it looks. The last time I tried, I got it on my teeth at least three times, my hands, my face, my friend somehow, and worst of all in half an almost perfectly classic lip print on the meticulously wrapped Secret Santa gift I was holding (which caused me some anxiety over how it would be received, haha). 

Last song you listened to: Nothing's Gonna Hurt You, Baby - Cigarettes After Sex.

Tagging:

Mother's Day

She’s using theorems

Dollars Trilogy Fandom Event - February 3rd February

Day 6 - bounty | secrets | money | night

So Gerard’s Quarantine Coloring Book got me thinking, and I’ve had these lyrics stuck in my head a lot lately (what with the quarantine and everything), so I made my own little doodly coloring page with them. 

In the spirit of the Quarantine Coloring Book, feel free to color it and post your own colored versions of it if you’d like! (Though of course I’d appreciate credit for the drawing part of it if you do post it :) And please tag me so I can see it!)

“And we’ll love again, we’ll laugh again, we’ll cry again, and we’ll dance again” 

~My Chemical Romance, I Never Told You What I Do For a Living

So I decided to give myself a sharpie tattoo tonight :) I’ve been vaguely imagining having a “God is Love” (1 John 4:8) tattoo for quite a long time, but I’m afraid of both needles and decisions and thus have not done so as yet. 

But I’ve been seeing these pictures of Gerard Way with sharpie tattoos and I was just like “there is no reason I should not give myself a sharpie tattoo right now” and so... I did. 

See beneath the cut for step by step pictures and general rambling :)

I put it in the spot where I would get a real tattoo if I ever get around to getting one; I have a big weird scar about halfway up the outside of my left calf and I figure if I were to get a proper tattoo, that’s kind of an ideal spot for a tattoo anyways and I might as well cover my scar with one. 

As with any good scar, there’s a long story to it, but (gross-out warning, mild medical violence warning) basically I had a spider bite that got infected and it swelled up into this big nasty boil-ish, welt-ish thing that lasted for an uncomfortably long time. When I went to the doctor with it, they pretty much just stabbed it twice to get it to drain and it left me with this. It’s hard to get it to show up very well but it’s basically two deep divots in a patch of pale, off-texture skin, a bit bigger around than a quarter. 

So I knelt on my bed with my leg at an awkward angle, whipped out my treasured 30 pack of rainbow sharpies (minus like 3, because sharpies like to run away), and went to work. It was kind of a weird angle to draw at not only because of how I had to bend my knee but also because everything I was drawing was sideways, but the heart turned out fairly nicely, if a bit lopsided. 

I didn’t make the heart quite big enough to fit “God is Love” inside of it so I wound up with the love bit underneath. I’m fairly pleased with how it looks, although you can definitely tell from the “e” that I was working sideways. 

I liked it well enough, but I wanted more color, and so I decided to add a butterfly wing to the left--or perhaps a flower. I have a tendency to draw those rather similarly so it’s basically both. One flower lead to another, then another, plus a couple of vines; I have progress pictures with each individual piece I added, but to prevent this post from going on for too long, I’ll just jump back to the final design. 

Also, side note, my knee was stiff as all heck after sitting like that for all the time I was drawing, and I had to limp around the house a bit to get my leg to straighten back out. In hindsight I would advise taking more breaks during the drawing process when sitting with one’s leg at such a weird angle.

The main picture at the top is from that stage as well, but then I went and googled “sharpie tattoo” because I remembered something about there being a way to make them last longer. I found this, which said to cover it in baby powder and spray it with hairspray. I don’t really use hair spray regularly, but I was pretty sure I had some around somewhere; the first stuff I found actually turned out to be a spray can of hair mousse, though, so I just patted it around on top of the baby powder. I didn’t quite get the whole thing covered because I was worried about smudging it if I rubbed it around. 

I was fairly certain I had some actual hairspray somewhere; eventually it occured to me to look in my old dance bag, because the last time I used hair spray was probably my 9th grade dance recital. I was correct, and upon locating said dance bag, I found both hairspray and an abundance of nostalgia. I reapplied baby powder and sprayed it on. Having not been used in nearly a decade, the hairspray came out in a confused trickle rather than a spray, and the whole area became very wet as I tried to pour out enough spray to cover the design in its entirety. The ink started to bleed and, while pretty, I was worried that rather than preserving my sharpie tattoo I was going to rinse it off prematurely in a flood of aged hairspray. 

I quickly dabbed at the flow with a bit of toilet paper, and in doing so accidentally made a rather lovely watercolor on the paper. 

So, this is where things are at now. The baby powder did leave quite a bit of texture on my leg. I imagine it will rinse off, but I think for tonight I’ll let things ‘set’ before I try and rinse it. Perhaps it would’ve been better if I’d left the initial design without putting any of this on it, but hopefully this will help it last longer. It’s just fun to have something bright, colorful, and meaningful on my leg. 

I’ve been really digging Killjoy aesthetics lately and I love the whole culture of being bright and colorful and unique that they have, and as I’ve been conceptualizing my Killjoy OC (cosplay to come, if I ever get around to it), I’ve found myself thinking about how I’d want to ideally design... well, myself, and so I guess this sharpie tattoo was really born from that. 

Along those same lines, I’ve also been revisiting the idea of dyeing my hair. It’s something I’ve contemplated since middle school but never done, but now I really think I would like to. Again I’m at least partly inspired by Gerard Way, both in the sense of the bold hair colors of the Killjoy universe and from seeing how many great hair styles and colors Gerard’s had over the years. I’m not fond of the idea of cutting my hair, but I like the thought of mixing it up by dyeing it. 

The wrench in my plans right now, though, is the way that everything is just on hold at the moment. Specifically, I’ve been in rehearsals for a play, but with this whole pandemic business, our rehearsals are suspended and our play is postponed for an unknown period of time. The play is the Crucible, and unfortunately, neon red violet hair would not fly in puritan Salem. My plan initially was to dye my hair as soon as the play was over in early April, but now, well... who knows how long it’ll be until the show happens and I’m in the clear to mess with my hair. So, stay tuned for that I guess. I don’t know if I’ll wait to do my Killjoy cosplay until I’m able to dye my hair; I would like to have both this sharpie tattoo and dyed hair at the time of said cosplay, but I’m not certain whether those time frames we’ll overlap. We’ll see. 

Anyways, if anyone’s still reading this, thanks for sticking with me through my rambling! I hope you have enjoyed this episode of Violet’s adventures in sharpie tattoos.

Yes, this is definitely my favorite Gerard hair :) The color, the shape, and the softness are all on point. 

Day 57: “Sniper”

Oooo spaaarkly! I love the kitty’s eyes :)

Also I saw these before I read the comics and I definitely found myself picturing these animations when I came to these frames.

The Zones

Guess what my new phone background is :)

I finally decided it was time to change away from my Christmas screensaver (it was Os, Ed, and Martin decorating their Christmas tree by random-fandom-art, partly inspired by a prompt I sent, which I reblogged a while ago--it’s currently on page 4 of my blog, though obviously that will change--side note, how cool is it that you can suggest things to artists on here and then the art happens? Epic.) 

So this is my new home screen. I always love Spicy Watson’s colors so much; they’re just so vivid and cheerful and the art really pops. I also love the details of the pattern on Os’s robe. Perhaps the best thing about this piece in particular, though, (I’m sounding like a wine-sipping art critic right now, aren’t I... woops) are Os and Ed’s expressions. I just love how straight up annoyed Oswald looks that Ed has gone and done something silly and gotten himself injured; his eyebrows could not more clearly say “again?”. Ed looks so bashful and embarrassed, yet there’s also that edge of a smile he’s barely biting back, and he looks like he’s actually quite happy to be having Oswald patching him up. I also love the purple outlines on Oswald’s hair because purple, and the fact that Oswald has canonically had purple highlights is still one of my favorite things about his fashion choices. Because purple. In conclusion, they may annoy each other, but they’ll always take care of each other. (That was a completely non sequitur use of “in conclusion” but I’m standing by it.) 

-Oswald, really, I’m fine.

-If you come home like this one more time, you’re sleeping on the couch.

[please don’t repost anywhere]

Oswald and his family, being happy and sweet. 

At first I was disappointed that Ed was left out, but then I realized, even though he’s not pictured really, there are two gifs of Os looking at him/attempting to confess his love for him, so he’s implied in it. 

Three generations of Cobblepot cuteness :) 

I hope no one minds my Christmas spam, but I feel like I’ve got to post all this cuteness tonight because it will be late tomorrow. So much Christmassy fluff, so little time...

Merry Christmas!

For my DCTV Secret Santa giftee @khenq

So I know it’s late November and everyone has pretty much moved on to Christmas and such, but I’m somewhat slow with processing things and I still wanted to share my Gotham-themed trunk that I did for my church’s Trunk-or-Treat this Halloween. It’s the first year I’ve gone so specific with a theme, but I got so obsessed with Gotham over the summer that I couldn’t help myself. So, I decided to make my trunk into the Iceberg Lounge (circa early season 4, though my Penguin costume is more season 3-inspired). 

I’ll probably do a few separate posts, actually, just to break down all the different parts and how I made them, but here are some general pictures of my trunk and myself in costume. For anyone who doesn’t know, Trunk-or-Treat is a thing some churches, and other organizations, do where a bunch of people line up their cars in a parking lot and decorate their trunks. It provides a shorter, safer trick-or-treating route for parents with young children or anyone who doesn’t want to go house to house, and it’s also a way for people like me who live way out in the country to get trick-or-treaters. (Speaking of living out in the country, I did wash my car the day before this, but living on a gravel road, the dust always comes back...)

My Iceberg Lounge trunk, in brief, included purple umbrella lights fixtures, a frozen Ed-berg, penguin statues, and Oswald’s shiny orange bar counter. For my costume, I wore a fancy suit (obviously, haha. I also learned it’s really fun to shop for menswear). I even found a wing-collared shirt like Oswald wears in late season 2/season 3.  I knew I would never be able to get a wig into proper disco vampire form, so I decided to wear Oswald’s bowler cap; I still probably didn’t get the wig trimmed short enough on the sides (I bought a basic black bob wig at Walmart and trimmed it) but I’m pretty pleased with how the spiky bangs turned out. Naturally, I also found myself a nice long, black umbrella to complete the look :) 

I was really hoping that at least one Gotham fan would come through and get it, and I could point to my icy Ed and go “look! I even have Ed!”, but alas, no one did. One family did a Batman-themed trunk and I strolled over, as in character as I could manage, to introduce myself, but I did have to explain my costume to them. I was fairly happy, though, that at least a couple of people did get that I was the Penguin (”let’s see, purple parasols and birds... you must be... the Penguin?” guessed one gentleman). Anyways, now I’m posting it here, so hopefully some Gotham fans will see it and appreciate my theme! 

laios remembering him this way always makes me giggle bc i really hope this is how my friends see me. i won’t ask because any other answer would devastate me tbh

so glad they kept his silly bisexual wink in Laios' imagination despite everything... this will sustain me forever

Esther Scroll, Ancona, early 18th century

Handwritten text, unfinished decorated cut-away parchment Parchment, 8 membranes, 39 text columns,  23x458 cm Carved wooden roller Gift of Mrs. Erna Ascoli in memory of her husband U. Nahon Museum of Italian Jewish Art ON 0495

This scroll is a beautiful example of the particular style of decoration that flourished in the Italian towns of Ancona and Lugo in the eighteenth and early nineteenth centuries. Artists in these towns specialized in a laborious technique whereby the parchment was cut away to create an intricately patterned frame for the text that reminds us of the beautiful lace used in fashions of that period. This elaborate technique was employed to adorn megillot, ketubbot and a variety of Judaica objects. Only a few such Italian cut-out parchment scrolls remain today.

Diana Yevtukh

A U R O R A

Russia-based designer Ruslan Khasanov has created a short film as an Experimental project that explores psychedelic shapes. 

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WWP'176, Martin Naumann, 2018

and into the (sea)water - Dazai Osamu Web Weave

i love the sea that swallows all

and yet “not you” i beg, tearing the shore apart

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BSD is written by Kafka Asagiri and illustrated by Sango Harukawa

turn towards the (moon)light  

bsd - anime / (?) / bsd - manga / john keats / bsd: dead apple / leigh bardugo /  m.l. stedman / bsd - manga / the mountain goats, “no children” / bsd - manga / bsd - manga / mary oliver / gospels of the flood / bsd - manga / ocean vuong / bsd - manga / phoebe bridgers, “stay down” / louise glück / bsd: dead apple / phoebe bridgers, “moon song” / bsd - manga / john ajvide lindqvist / the crane waves, “never love an anchor” / bsd - anime

touched, touch, touching (dazatsu web weave)

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BSD is written by Kafka Asagiri and illustrated by Sango Harukawa

bsd - anime / hozier, “from eden” / bsd: dead apple / bsd: dead apple manga / madeline miller /  edna st. vincent millay in a letter to arthur davison ficke / bsd - manga / bsd - ending 1 / bsd - manga / bsd character song album cover / richard siken / richard siken / house of leaves / bsd - character song album cover / mariana’s trench, “good to you” / rainbow rowell / bsd - ending 1 / euripides - trans. anne carson / marya hornbacher / bsd: dead apple / the used, “i caught fire” /  bsd: dead apple / bsd: dead apple / bsd: dead apple / anne sexton / bsd: dead apple / mikko harvey

not long now

my piece for the @kh15thfanzine! It was so amazing to be a part of this!

Send us asks about our packmates!

(All of our kins and fictives are ocs so far)

List of all known/named packmates;

ShaySubpack (asked for overall or individually); Zuki, Cyan, and Akay 🐾🪶🩵🖌 (emojis are in order)

Declan 😺

Lakey 🌊

Lynix 🐈‍⬛

Shirley 🦮

Den 🐲

Mystery ❔️

Phalen x2(?) 🌕

Onyx 🐺

Arden ⛏️

Moonfire 🌙🔥

Nile 🦇

Okami 🌖

Vesper 🌠

Mani(?) Another subpack 🌹

You can put names and/or emojis [we'd prefer at least names] for who you are asking about (hopefully every being will answer their own questions, lol). Just ask a question and put who you're asking about!

Edit: Also if you don't have specific questions, you can just put who you're asking about and who ever it is will just probably ramble a bit, lol.

- Shay 🐾

Rebloging our own post cause we really would love some more advice!

- Shay 🐾

Question for the systems/plurals (or whatever term that beings use for those types of things) that have intentionally created alter(s)/headmate(s) [or whatever term].

How do you actually go about doing that? We are interested in trying to make/create some packmates (our version of alters/headmates) but we don't really know how to go about that.

We hope that we have explained this in a very respectful way.

- Shay 🐾 & Mystery ❔️ (when we started writing this post, Mystery was also in front, but not when posting this)

Edit (we originally just had this in the comments, but it's worth adding to the actual post): Add on to our original post. We have seen tumblr posts of "make a headmate/alter," are those recommended? (Hope this makes at least some sense). We don't necessarily mean using one or asking for one to be made for us. We just mean how they are formatted and all that. But also, would beings recommend using one of those?

Question for the systems/plurals (or whatever term that beings use for those types of things) that have intentionally created alter(s)/headmate(s) [or whatever term].

How do you actually go about doing that? We are interested in trying to make/create some packmates (our version of alters/headmates) but we don't really know how to go about that.

We hope that we have explained this in a very respectful way.

- Shay 🐾 & Mystery ❔️ (when we started writing this post, Mystery was also in front, but not when posting this)

Edit (we originally just had this in the comments, but it's worth adding to the actual post): Add on to our original post. We have seen tumblr posts of "make a headmate/alter," are those recommended? (Hope this makes at least some sense). We don't necessarily mean using one or asking for one to be made for us. We just mean how they are formatted and all that. But also, would beings recommend using one of those?