Pro A4a - Blog Posts

Quando mi brontolerà lo stomaco, saprò di star andando bene. Quando inizierà a girarmi di nuovo la testa quando mi alzo dal letto, saprò che sto avanzando a grandi passi. Quando avrò la nausea e l'acidità di stomaco dopo aver mangiato qualcosa, saprò che ci sono quasi. Quando mi siederò su una sedia con i piedi su di essa e le ginocchia alzate, e non sentirò la mia pancia toccare le cosce, saprò che sono proprio lì lì per avercela fatta. Quando camminerò e non sentirò l'interno delle mie cosce toccarsi, o quando mi stenderò sul fianco e tra le mie cosce ci sarà abbastanza spazio per farci passare la mano senza toccarle, saprò che ce l'ho fatta. Quando l'elastico per capelli non mi stringerà più la parte più larga del braccio, saprò di aver vinto.

Ma, fino a quel momento, continuerò a fissarmi nuovi obbiettivi.

06/09/2023, ore 06:20.

Don't get me wrong... I hate my body. And I'm trying to get to my goal weight. I'm at the lowest weight I've been since HIGHSCHOOL. But I will not lie that I am a complete Slut for spaghetti. I'll be back on my usual shit tomorrow ✌️

I can't believe I'm almost to my first GW. I feel like I've been working on it forever. I'm glad that it's finally working.

To anyone that tries to guilt people into not hurting/hating themselves because "it hurts you too" FUCK ALL THE WAY OFF!!!! You have no say in what we do or how we think about ourselves. It is our choice. Let us deal with it. Putting guilt on us is only going to make it worse. Just because you like us doesn't mean we have to like ourselves. You have no idea what we feel like. What it feels like to want to peel your own skin off because of something that happened years ago. Wanting to drive into oncoming traffic just to finally have some semblance of peace. Wanting to waste away until there is nothing left... Not even bones. Wanting to evaporate. Not even wanting to restart anymore, you just want it to end. How the fuck do you think it's ok to tell us that it would hurt you when you don't have a clue the amount of pain we are in.

FUCK YOU

Fasting isn’t working, I’m just gonna have to cut it all off 🤷🏻

Sometimes I wonder if people would like me more if I was literally just a skeleton

My ED tying to convince me that i enjoy the nauseating hunger pains and splitting head ache

Parents: Have you eaten today?

Me: Yes (lying)

Today's meals

Breakfast: black coffee 2cal

Lunch: Plain shirataki noodles 10cal, a pickle 7cal

Dinner: Sour pickle 7cal

Total: 26 calories.

Steps taken: 862 (Lazy day), burned 37 calories.

Girl dinner <3

Stepping on the scale over and over again, hoping that the number will somehow go down.

Tiny legs and big shoes <3

I can't wait until I can lay on my side and my stomach fat won't spill over.

My holy grail: shirataki noodles.

Only 10 calories in 100 grams, fills you up and won't make you fat.

I've let go, I got so busy with life that I forgot what I was striving for. But now I will get back on track, I have more free time now, I will finally look how I used to, weigh what I used to.

CW:80

GW:55

I'm trying to get thin here and the smell of my neighbors making potato pancakes has spread across my room, screw them fr

I saw another girl today with a4a, her body is stunning but 60% of her hair is gone, please don't forget your vitamins and nutritious foods guys 💛✨

Vegetables > rice cakes

If you are scared of fruits, eat them before 12pm, you will get the vitamins and burn off the calories throughout the day.

I care about you 💛✨

Teaspoons >>> Tablespoons

This must be a sign lol

The debate whether I should have breakfast to get me through classes or to keep on fasting.

Big boots tiny legs is my dream

Parents: "Why aren't you eating?"

Also them:

"You'd look better if you lost weight"

"You're the heaviest in the family"

"Jesus, why are you eating so much"

"Your thighs are so big"

"How much do you weigh? You look so big"

"I was way smaller when I was your age"

"You eat like a grown man"

"Maybe if you ate less your skin would be clearer"

Irl meanspo fr

Do you really want that pizza or do you want to look good?

I love the feeling when my stomach hurts from starving <3

I found some more portion control/foodspo

I hate that I recovered, I was so thin and lovely back then. I stopped being afraid of food and became overweight, I look so ugly. This time I will do better, I will become even thinner. People keep commenting how much bigger I am now and it's giving me the motivation to starve.

My home is empty so pls reblog if you are an active blog in march/april 2023