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Where do I get razors? Like I really wanna try the Matgicol ones, but my parents are always on my ass about cutting, and my mom took all my razors. And those were just from pencil sharpeners, they were barley effective anyway.
It’s so weird that people’s first thought isn’t cutting themselves when they’re having a shitty day. Crazyyyyyy like I’m about to have the time of my life with my blades when I get home.
im so tired but i NEED to cvt
My opinions based on your sh tool
Pencil sharpener blades: We’ve all been there, the definition of desperate. May not be the sharpest but she gets the job done and will have a special place in our hearts <3
Razor blades: My absolute fave, works like a fucking charm. You’ve definitely done some experimenting trying to get them out of the razors.
Scissors: You’re either super desperate and using the only thing you can find, or you’re crazy and literally cut chunks out of your skin. I could never stomach cutting chunks so y’all are brave
Lighter: I’ve never used it, but you seem pretty chill. Definitely gets overlooked in the sh community
Hands: sometimes it’s just easiest to dig your nails into your skin until they’re decorated in those little half moons. Skin picking too, that also a fun one. Pretty easy to hide and execute, not the most painful tho
Knives: depends on the kind of knife. You could have anything from light cuts to some deep serious shit. It’s probably a pain in the ass to hide the knife tho.
Safety pins: these were my starter tool. Again, not the sharpest, but she works and isn’t really that hard to find. You’re probably just starting out with sh, and I recommend you don’t continue doing it because it can be very addictive
Glass: you’re pretty cool! It’s a pretty solid tool with good sharpness, and not too big to hide! You have a very well rounded tool and have probably been doing this for a while.
Box cutter: again, never used it, but they seem about the same sharpness as a razor blade. I’m kinda jealous of how easy they seem to hold and the leverage you can get. You seem like someone who likes the sharpness of a razor blade but is going the classy route.
I’ve definitely forgotten some so lmk what and I’ll edit it <3
If I got anything wrong I’m so so sorry
🪼Blog Intro🌴
TW- mention of 3d and $h
Hey guys! My name is Laylani. I live in America and I am in school. This is my 3d blog and I might mention $h a bit too. The 3d I have is 4n4 and it’s really hard to deal with tbh. My aesthetic is coconut or beach girl. I will update my stats on this post frequently.
Height (might change)- 5,2.5
SW- 112 p0unds
CW- 112 p0unds
Trying to heal my wrist scars but I wanna cut so bad. I am way too scared it is too easy to find and my parents will see. I am on vacation and don’t have a blade so I can’t cut anyway. I think I might do thighs or hips for now on so it will be a lot easier to hide. Ugh but I know it won’t be as satisfying for me😭😭
Haiiii just my wonderful intro, for the 3rd time >:(
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Previously blogs that have been term (r0ttens3xc0rpse, imr0ttingh3re so 3 times a charm)
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┊Name : Nav
┊Age : 18
┊Zodiac : Virgo
┊Pronouns : I do not care
┊Sexuality : Queer
┊Extra : I love to sleep & I do have a bf :3
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┊Mental : Depression, bipolar, ADHD, anxiety
┊Food : Burritos & sushi
┊Hobbies : Draw, edit, & makeup
┊Music taste : Anything to be honest as long as I like it :3
┊Likes : Otters and bunnies
┊Dislikes : Complete dickheads
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Meh :)
i want to die but i know ill never have the confidence to do it myself, but nights like these i feel awful, its like a constant emptiness inside me all the time
is it weird i want people to be concerned about me
cant tell if i want more scars or for them all to go away
Is it wrong that i like my scars?
i like the way they look,i want more
BRO💀bro~😲
My dad brought a box full of razor blades from work...🥹ummm like...is it a gift orrr
IM FUCKIN SHAKING
i relapsed like So fucking much its deep as fuck im crying idk what to do
im kinda scared i think one of my cut is infected 💀umm 😭😭
❝ why do i cry ? when i have my coffee . . . ❞
ughh , why am i getting jealous over random ppl on the internet ? they're ALLOWED to have friends , they're allowed to like other ppl — why am i so selfish ? it's so tiring seeing other ppl be close w each other . . . why can't i have that ? ik im not the easiet to love or be close w , but i try . ppl know i try , right ? ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
ugh , it's not like i'd be able to get close w anyone . i can never seem to open up — or even try rlly . the urge to cvt has been so strong lately and i have no idea what to do abt it . i can't go to my step dad anymore — im 15 , i should be able to handle this on my own . ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
fuck , i miss cvtting on my arms . i miss my friends , i miss having a purpose . ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
what's the point anymore ? ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
❝ . . . after you disappeared , it seems like almost a year . . ❞
❝ this feeling i'm being watched . . . ❞
bro i js had the most draining dream wth . technically it wasn't even that serious , but in my dream i had talked to my older sister abt how her and my younger sister leave me out cus she wouldn't stop talking abt how my younger sister would tell her ANYTHING . and even tho ik everything that happened in the dream was fake , it still felt so real and now im exhausted even tho i js woke up . ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
fuck , i wasn't even supposed to sleep till around 6 since i have babysitting tonight and i gotta make sure i stay up . why am i such a failure ? i had one job and im already ass at it !! i can't do anything right !!! i can't even talk to my fucking friends anymore cus i js get so tired and nervous thinking abt it — talking to ppl shouldn't be this draining , should it ? why r my dreams never safe ? why can't i js escape once and a while ? ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
the next time i cut and don't make it to beans , im kms !! ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
❝ . . . why , why can't it just stop ? ❞
❝ this might be our final gig . . . ❞
if u saw the other post NO U DiDNT !!!! anyways literally why is my only motivation to shower is so i can cut after ??? i've been fightinggggg w myself so i don't cut my arms cus i wear short sleeves too often , BUT i MiSS iT SMMM !!! its soo easy to go deep and it makes my arms look skinner somehow ?? idk , ive never had to multi swipe to get to beans rlly anywhere on my body , but mayb that's js me :/ ughh wtv , at least my hair is clean — dirty curly hair is the worst and feels so nastyyy 𖦹´ ᯅ ` 𖦹 ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
also needy streamer overload won the poll !! luckily im getting paid sometime this week so i can buy the 2 other games later :P ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
❝ . . . but we're recording gold now ! ❞
❝ baby , if u wanna leave , come to california . . . ❞
am i staying up so i sleep later tmrw so i be left alone . . ? nope !! u r !!! ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
but seriously i NEEEDDD to go back to sleep depriving myself . i literally could go DAYS w js 3 hrs of sleep , most of the time less . i used to blame school for me not being able to anymore — but now that it's summer , i have no excuse !! at least i can sh w / o having scars for my family to look for . . ૮ o . o ; ྀིྀა mayb i should set up a schedule — and if i go off of it i gotta cut or js not sleep for a day ?? but id have to figure it out in a way that i wont sleep for 10 hrs randomly cus i WiLL end it all if i break any type of schedule i have 𖦹´ ᯅ ` 𖦹 ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
maybe sleep at 10 , wake up at 12 ?? idk , i'll figure it out ԅ(¯﹃¯ԅ)୧ can't wait till im sick like i used to be !! literally yearning for it tee bee atch , js trust ill probably be posting A LOT . . . ⸝⸝ ‹𝟹
❝ . . . be a freak , like me too . ❞
