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this is my new toy which woman wants to play with me
Got home from a long day of work and looked into this lovely girls eyes as she unzipped. 🥰🥰
“it's happening again.
my eyes are searching the room for you, without even meaning to.
the twinge in my heart when a day passes and i didn't get to hear your voice.
i feel it creeping up my neck, when our eyes lock and neither of us dares to look away.
the ache i get at the end of the day when i regret not having the guts to talk to you.
it's happening again,
but how will it end this time?”
A.M. {it's just a crush, it's just a crush, it's just a crush}
“Oh, but you don’t know. You don’t know what your ocean eyes and innocent smile could do to a girl like me; A girl who overthinks every little thing.”
A.M. {hope}
“You aren't even mine, but I still love you like you are.”
A.M. {unrequitedly}
“I will never fall in love with him,” my mind vows.
And then my heart murmured, “My dear, when will you realize you already have?”
A.M. {you can’t fool your own heart}
“it wasn’t until you smiled that my stomach twitched with a feeling i knew all too well, and suddenly all i could think was, “oh crap.””
- A.M. {why did it have to be you?}
And here I am. Falling in love all over again. Will it hurt, the way it did before? Will my heart race as much as the first time? Which of the ‘what ifs’ will come true this time, or should I even bother? Should I feel excited? Scared? Only time will tell.
I hope this time the result changes
I know it will be the death of me. Again. My heart will die a second time when he tells me.
Why is it always me who gets the heartbreak?
I've heard that if a crush lasts longer than 4 months, you're already in love. So what happens when I've been infatuated with you for 60 months, Does this mean I've fallen in love with you 15 times? Or have I simply wasted 5 years? 60 months? 261 weeks? 1825 days?
That one crush
You taught me how to live, but you will also be the death of me.
Why?
• [I have scars but the most painful ones are fresh and in my heart.] •
They can’t be seen and hiding the pain hurts even more.
I told my friend what hurt the most.
I want you to tell me, to trust me, to want me.
-it’s always the same story -what story? -the story of how the girl loves the boy, but he didn’t love her back
The story of my life #2
There was a girl. She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn’t supposed to look nice, it was supposed to make you feel something. There was a boy. He never really understood. He presumed the top layer was the only layer and never knew the truth. She was a smart girl until she fell in love. He was an oblivious boy until everything was over.
Maddie; The story of my life #1
You ever get told by a mutual friend who doesn't know who you crush is that your crush used to like you but now knows someone else and then your crush actually confirms that and you feel like you completely missed your chance but they still keep acting really involved with you and like they still might have a crush on you so there are way too many mixed messages and you are soo confused? Yeah it's fun. :)
I have a lot of obsessions. I switch very quickly from one to another, and when I'm obsessed, I'm OBSESSED. If I'm obsessed with a person, I will find their social media, read all the articles I can find about them, watch all the videos I have with them in it, reread all of our correspondence, mention them in every conversation, and think about them every single minute of my day. When I'm obsessed with a fandom or ship, I will spend all of my time on tumblr and the internet watching edits and gifs and reading people's opinions. If I'm obsessed with a phrase, I will find a way to fit it into any conversation. I don't know why my mind works like this, and I have no idea whether it is something that happens to other people or not, but I don't want to tell anyone because I'm worried it will freak people out. But on the other hand, I really want to talk to someone about it.
don't you love it when you accidentally fall for one of your closest guy friends, who also happens to be the first guy you've liked in over five years, and you spent the past two months thinking you had a chance w him and for the past year and a half people betting on when you guys would start dating and then you finally tell your parents about him and for the first time in your life they love and approve of the person you like and literally on the same day you find out he's actually been dating your friend for the past few months and no one ever told you and then after that you find out he's liked you since he met you but he thought you were lesbian this whole time so he never even bothered with you bc he's a respectful man who would never cross boundaries and then one of your mutual friends tells you that if you asked him out first he would've chosen you over your friend? bc i totally sure do :/
okay update ??? i asked for a diff friend’s comb yesterday to fix my bangs and the friend i mentioned above (i have a huge fat crush ngl) insisted on being the one to do it. like, they grabbed me by the chin and started fixing my bangs, and when i moved my head to look at something they grabbed my jaw to move my face back and kept holding my face even after they were done ???
is that a sign chat
i just had the FREAKIEST dream about my friend at a sleepover and woke up with my head on their chest and their arm on my back refusing to let me get up… it is NOT casual anymore
i just had the FREAKIEST dream about my friend at a sleepover and woke up with my head on their chest and their arm on my back refusing to let me get up… it is NOT casual anymore
