Tothevoidwithyethoughts - Vent Sb

Not sure if I'll ever come to terms with the heartbreak inherent in change.

It's so weird watching the internet enter into this period of major anti-consumer changes which will almost certainly give birth to new alternative sites that will become the new juggernauts of the internet, or some new age of consumerist horror never before seem.

Between the Tumblr porn ban, reddit blackout, Twitter's implosion, TikTok threatening to be banned every other month, Netflix cutting off sharing, nothing seems stable anymore.

I'm just pack rat hoarding and copying down all the life-tips, artists names, resources, and shop names I love before it's parent site inevitably falls into the abyss

Been feeling like this lately.

It's like if you don't want to interact with me just fucking tell me.

I don't want to feel left out.🧩

I don't want to feel rejected.

If you don't want me, just tell me and I'll stop bugging you.🔴

If you need a break of pause tell me. I'll respect that. Just let me know. 🟡

If you want to interact with me, but need to find time or I did something wrong or made it difficult tell me! I need to be able to fix it. I can't if you don't tell me.🟢

I just don't want to feel invisible or rejected or unwanted with out any communication.

Tell me you want me to fuck off and I will.

my life just is [gets traumatized] [gets traumatized] [gets traumatized] [gets

I guess today is “let’s not respond to me” Yeah okay that’s fine too

Being ignored by someone who means everything to you is the worst feeling ever and I can feel that shit right now.

If you're used to not having your needs met or not having your dreams/desires fulfilled, it's very likely that everytime you wish for something you don't belive it will ever happen to you. Maybe to others, but not to you. It has a lot to do with having been taught (even unconsciously, by always having been told "no") that you're not good enough to have what you want or wish for or need.

But that's not the reality of things. You're worthy, at least to try and believe you can have it. Maybe you won't have it all or you'll have something it in a different form (not everything is made for us and not is the way we wish it to be) but you are totally worth enough to allow yourself to try your best and get it. Life will let you know what it really is for you but don't stop yourself before even trying. Don't ever see not making it as a failure or as a confirmation of your unworthiness: that is not what it is about. Maybe you cannot have one thing but you'll have another (the same way you probably weren't good in math at school but were amazing in PE: it depends, it doesn't mean you're not worthy or lovable). You deserve to gift this chance to yourself. Try to believe a bit more: at least you will be able to say you have tried and sooner or later you'll finally have what you want. It's a matter of building trust, hope and believe in your own worth first and foremost: practice will make it better.

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

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heartbreaking: none of artist's other songs are as much of a banger as the song I discovered the artist by