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i always thought romantic love was the plague and i was a plague doctor.

so here's an aro-colored plague doctor

me oversharing beneath the cut about how amatonormativity has screwed me up in ways I have never been screwed up before.

(rant beneath the cut is full of negativity, triggering, but perhaps relatable. idk. read at your own risk)

okay so let's have a mini story telling time about how romance plagued every aspect of my life until now.

My bestfriend in high school treated me of less value after she gets her boyfriend. This experience was what drove me into drawing plague doctors during valentines. These doodles were captioned with "Plague is in the air", because my friends in my circle told me to not hang out with her on that day because it's valentines day. So cool, I thought I should avoid them like they were the plague.

For the first half of college, I've been a wingman for way too many of my friends for my only female and best friend.

It has gotten to a point where the meaning of my companionship with my male friends had become solely for providing a connection to a girl they want to date.

In the long run, my bestfriend, who my 'friends' were pining for, actually has been pining for me. She asked if we could be a thing, I said yes because I thought that, romance isn't probably as disgusting as I think of it.

To protect tradition and to protect the feelings of the men she rejected (who I also wingmanned), we kept it hidden.

For the entire time, she emphasized how I was dense and oblivious about romance. For the entire time I was confused, disoriented, and even repulsed. I didn't know how to reciprocate and I certainly did not have THOSE feelings either at all.

Of course it didn't end well.

After that failed attempt at romance, I have been involved in three more encounters after that. Men suddenly started talking to me out of nowhere. Initially, I thought that they were just trying to make new friends. I didn't realize they were hitting on me but when I did, I cold-shouldered them out of my life.

The last one was the most traumatic. I have explicitly stated that he shouldn't attempt to romance me because I've admitted that I'm way too tired of dealing with it, but he was stubborn. He has also gone as far as sexualizing me against my will.

So yeah.

Amatonormativity made me lose faith in the meaning of my friendships.

It made me realize how friendship is easily overshadowed by romantic relationships.

It made me worry that my kindness is misread as a romantic gesture.

It made me constantly hate how friendship is only seen as a stepping stone for a romantic relationship.

And because amatonormativity has rendered all my significant connections meaningless, I'll spend every second of my life hating amatonormativity. I will always be repulsed at the concept that destroyed every goddamned friendship that I had. Nothing has ever made me feel THS sick. I will always think of it as the plague.

I deserve it

he is always slightly confused and concerned

wow he’s so cool

secretary of defense looking at mcnamara with his biggest saddest wet eyes

how is this the same man

the man has range

@staff @staff @staff BAN. THE. FUCKING. P!RN. BOTS. Holy shit. I am sick and tired of seeing everyone taking it into their own hands to report spam and p!rn bots when they shouldn't have this problem ya'll need to ban the bots and DO YOUR JOB like, literally minors (including me) and sex-repulsed ppl have been exposed to nsfw images or spam in the asexual/aromantic tags when when all we're trying to do is connect with our community You guys have the AUDACITY to ban trans women blogs for no fuckin reason but don't lift a finger to stop the p!rn and spam bots infiltrating tags???? do fucking better, Tumblr staff.

I know we’re all talking about this clip BUT I NEED TO FUCKING TALK ABOUT THIS CLIP

ITS SOOOOO FUCKING GOOD I LOVE JON MATTESON SO MUCH AND WILL BRANNER EATS THOSE NOTES UP

The fucking switch from the super loud and emotionally intense I’M NOT A LOSER to the fucking tiny don’t kill me is so fucked up i love it

I’ve not shut the fuck up about this specific scene for like two other posts but I felt the need to actually post the clip

Also it is hot that he immediately starts repeating it just because he’s told to by a dominant force, let alone the person who’s about to murder him and I’m tired of pretending it’s not- sue me I don’t make the rules I just love pathetic men

In love with how the universal constant within the Hatchetfield saga is Paul just straight up not having a good time.

okay but starkid really made npmd and put it out there for FREE. jon matteson really sang “i’m not a loser” with his whole chest only to be told that he still lost and created one of the most emotionally devastating moments of cinema and they put it up for FREE

Jon Matteson does not get enough credit for his physical acting skills. In the "Nerdy Prudes Must Die" number when he "levitates" and then crashes to the ground? And in "Let It Out"? He fucking SELLS the emotional impact of those scenes and I'm tired of pretending that he is not one of the best things to happen to modern Starkid. Mariah and Angela definitely deserve their due, but my man is KILLING IT OUT HERE

-Signed, a disgruntled fan who still holds that "Let It Out" was the best scene in The Guy Who Didn't Like Musicals

this first video on Jon Matteson's tiktok is of him doing the WAP, and while that is surprising, what's more surprising is every comment under that video is some variation of "I don't remember this part of tgwdlm."

tf do you mean you don't remember???

it was a pretty significant detail

This is my dead girl walking.

Running Gags in Hatchetfield Musicals pt 5 | Smoke Club

HATCHETFEILD TRIO

Woah man NPMD made me actually lose it with hyperfixation so here’s the musical trio raghhh!!!!!

I was watching nightmare time for the first time while drawing these and I had to pause for a day to process jane’s a car because what the fuck guys

NERDY PRUDES MUST DIE 🪓🩸😈🤓

starkid fans when they see Normal Man and his Barista Crush onscreen for 0.5 seconds:

happy Thursday the 20th

Day 254 of posting Good Omens memes Everyday until Season 3

Day 255 of posting Good Omens memes Everyday until Season 3

Day 260 of posting Good Omens memes Everyday until Season 3

Day 267 of posting Good Omens memes Everyday until Season 3

crowley is me talkin about my hyperfixations

I was shitting, and I remembered how brie cheese is going extinct. I'm not sure if this is scientifically correct, so any cheese experts feel free to correct me

RESPECT ALL ASPEC IDENTITIES EVEN IF YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THEM

Get this message onto everyone’s dash rn

👿🌈😇

Finally it's done T^T

Hazbin Hotel Adam fans be like: