mizzykittyy
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I have no future uh..... I'm actually very scared
this ego train I've been on for the past 3 months it's starting to crash
maybe I was never that bitch
maybe I am just ill
maybe it was never meant to be
it being happiness and me
slowly starting to not reply and not text
if I'm not needed then I wont try stay
if life is meaningless then so be it I dont care
I hope we all die from isolation
into disintegration
Right so I'm 174cm which is abt 5'8 ½ which is pretty tall for a girl
I used to be very insecure about my height thinking it made me uglier and less desirable cuz I had a terrible terrible need for male validation that i simply never got when I was younger.
I have gotten over that now and honestly tall girls are so gorgeous and pretty.
But like shorter girls keep fucking complaining about "I can't wear these shoes I'll be too tall" right in front of me like WHAT
Ok ur shorter then me ur literally average height why are you complaining abt shoes, like I'm not even THAT tall and I've gotten over this whole shoe problem
But gosh fucking pissed me off
yesterday
This girl is talking to me abt wanting to get new shoes but she says "I'll be too tall with them"
uhhh no???? No you wont
She said "I'll be like the same height as you"
Uhhh
Girl
WHAT ARE YOU SAYING
Why is being my height bad
Literally I dont get it
174cm is a perfectly perfect height
Why is she saying this backhanded shit
i love dexter
I fear I'm getting a hyperfixation to dexter and dispite my hate for reading and my inability to read (dyslexia) I might buy the books to read them
Latest hobby is editing my photos as if I'm a cybercore artist cant stop wont stop
NOOOOOO YOU WERENT SUPPOSE TO FALL IN LOVE W ME NOOOOOOOO
Please please please dpnt fall in love with me I dont want to hurt yoh
How do you start liking the men who actually want you instead of the ones who treat you poorly and dont care about you???
Asking for a friend...
Lowk lost all will to live again
Lowk burnt out again
Lowk drinking alone again
Lowk ugly again
Lowk fat again
Lowk hate myself again
Lowk relapsed again
Lowk unlovable again
Lowk lost everything again
I hate spring
I got that spring time apring time sadness
Why does no one else have spring seasonal depression
Spring highlights my low mood cuz everything is suppose to be happy
Why do they call bruises black and blue when they are purple and red and turn yellow later on
It isn't relapsing if it's a new method
I just had the most extreme urge to relapse into sh again but then I had a poo and now I don't have the urge anymore
Is it really that hard to love me
Is it really that hard to want more then my vagina
Is it really that hard to sympathize
Is it really that hard to care
Is it really that hard
Im a woman ofc I'm just a body...
Do men purposely say "you can say no if u wanna" cuz they know it makes a woman more inclined to say yes cuz it manipulates her into thinking he respects her
People who hate others for something they did while in active addiction are actually so fucking full of themselves
Don't expect an addict to be acting right
Especially when you know they are using while they are being this "horrible vile person" (the most said addict done is usually just say smth mildly rude)
Like I understand when it comes to the addict being abusive or whatever
But more times then not people only be judging specifically FEMALE addicts who literally only CALL PEOPLE OUT ON THEIR WACK BEHAVIOR or just fall in love with the wrong people, which mind you is influenced by their addiction
And yes a fucking addict will beg for money for their addiction
If you have never had an addiction I don't want to hear any of it
You do NOT understand how it fucking feels to have an addiction and never remember anything you do YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO NOT BE ABLE TO FEEL HAPPY WITHOUT YOUR ADDICTION
so yeah
Just my thoughts
I really do not think people should judge addicts the way they do like have some fucking grip on reality
Addicts are addicts because they've been hurt, because they are hurt, because they are struggling
More then not, particularly for female addicts but also just implies to addicts in general, addicts are using their substance as a method of escapeism and/or coping mechanism as what is essentially a wheelchair, something that helps them survive
I don't think you as a non addict can actually judge an addicts actions when you don't understand any of their life or thought process
This also applies to judgement of people with BPD, Bipolar, Depression ect
If you don't understand then don't judge
I thought I thought I was generally healed from my ED but evidently not cuz I just threw up all my guts and 5 hours + a nap later I can still feel mia
Ok so he said he still wants to be chill but we haven't really spoken since we broke up but like I put a hot picture on my insta story he liked it
HE WANTS ME BACK
Or he just tryna show we chill
HE BETTER WANT ME BACK
He broke up w me cuz he's not ready for a relationship (that he started) and apparently I'm too emotional but he saying he does have feelings for me... He gave me a hickey earlier that day then he breaks up w me... I want him back... Is it bad to ask him for fwb...
Addiction sucks because you get so deep into it that you dont know how to live without your substance. Life without it feels so lacklustre. You lose track of who you are
I am an alcoholic trying to recover but living without is so hard for me.
This is my plan
I will start drinking in secret to try reduce my alc intake cuz trying to go sober is really hard, idk how to act sober, idk who I am sober, idk how to feel normal sober
It just doesnt work for me
Trying to stay sober while everyone around you is either street drinking or clubbing is so hard
I'm 18 why do I have to struggle like this
The only way I will feel happy without blacking out or doing stupid shit is if i keep drinking but without telling anyone,
Doing it in secret because then I will be worried about people knowing so I will be forced to drink less but I still get to have the clutch that makes me likeable and able to actually enjoy my time
I know this is a bad idea and I should just cut it out entirely but after a week of trying I just cant I cannot it is too difficult
Kissing in the back of police car while hes in cuffs kinda romantic but idk how he feels
Pee pee poo poo
Bro this film gets more and more relatable.
Dont think ive ever gotten this emotional over a film
The anger i share it the sadness the guilt i share it
Should be sleeping so i can wake up for college intime but instead im watching sharing the secret cuz I never see my representation its always ana
The void its coming back
When will a cute tall curly hair midwest emo come save me from this castle ive been entrapped in