People Don’t Talk About Touya’s Quirk Being Influenced By His Emotional State Enough

people don’t talk about touya’s quirk being influenced by his emotional state enough

when he was young, how often do you think he used that strong feeling of pride and happinesss he got from impressing his father to push his fire?

and when endeavor ripped that away from him, making him feel worthless and starved for love, how much more anguish was he in? being so used to putting that intense ‘positive’ emotion into firing up his quirk and now, instead of using that muscle and stoking the fire of his emotions to get further along in his training, he feels forgotten and doesn’t know what the point of his existence is. completely adrift and not knowing where to put that energy in almost a completely literal sense

and the second he wakes from his coma, he wants to try again. desperately reaching for that same feeling he still misses. made worse by the the fact he thinks that’s what love is and he wants his father’s love

then when he sees his father is stubbornly set in his decision to do all of this to shouto, even after touya burned alive and completely alone because of it, dabi knows he can never get that original feeling back

so now he uses his emotional connection to his fire to train with it even further, utilizing that burning anger and hurt to make himself ‘stronger’. hurting himself both physically and mentally every single time he does. not caring because he laid himself to rest already, realizing his ‘death’ did nothing to stop the horrors at home. realizing there was no point in trying to love because he was shown he wasn’t deserving of it and apparently neither was his youngest brother. he’s told that he is his power. he’s shown that he is his power. without it, he felt like he was nothing

but he’s felt so much of all of this emotion that he has some sense of numbness, too. his nerves are destroyed and he can’t feel the pain. on top of that, he has to learn how to quickly numb his intense emotion in order to control his own quirk. his self harm is all about precision, so he can keep himself alive and together just long enough to confront endeavor. he can go from being the most angry, vengeful, passionate burning light you’ve ever seen to completely numbing and stilling that rage. to pushing it all down and only crying a tear of blood. because his emotion is intrinsically tied to his quirk and even now, he only uses it to harm himself to eventually get to his father again

his quirk, something that is a huge part of him and his physiology, is based on emotion. his emotion controls his fire. and in his formative years, the foundation of the strongest relationship in his life was all based around self harm

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