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people don’t talk about touya’s quirk being influenced by his emotional state enough

when he was young, how often do you think he used that strong feeling of pride and happinesss he got from impressing his father to push his fire?

and when endeavor ripped that away from him, making him feel worthless and starved for love, how much more anguish was he in? being so used to putting that intense ‘positive’ emotion into firing up his quirk and now, instead of using that muscle and stoking the fire of his emotions to get further along in his training, he feels forgotten and doesn’t know what the point of his existence is. completely adrift and not knowing where to put that energy in almost a completely literal sense

and the second he wakes from his coma, he wants to try again. desperately reaching for that same feeling he still misses. made worse by the the fact he thinks that’s what love is and he wants his father’s love

then when he sees his father is stubbornly set in his decision to do all of this to shouto, even after touya burned alive and completely alone because of it, dabi knows he can never get that original feeling back

so now he uses his emotional connection to his fire to train with it even further, utilizing that burning anger and hurt to make himself ‘stronger’. hurting himself both physically and mentally every single time he does. not caring because he laid himself to rest already, realizing his ‘death’ did nothing to stop the horrors at home. realizing there was no point in trying to love because he was shown he wasn’t deserving of it and apparently neither was his youngest brother. he’s told that he is his power. he’s shown that he is his power. without it, he felt like he was nothing

but he’s felt so much of all of this emotion that he has some sense of numbness, too. his nerves are destroyed and he can’t feel the pain. on top of that, he has to learn how to quickly numb his intense emotion in order to control his own quirk. his self harm is all about precision, so he can keep himself alive and together just long enough to confront endeavor. he can go from being the most angry, vengeful, passionate burning light you’ve ever seen to completely numbing and stilling that rage. to pushing it all down and only crying a tear of blood. because his emotion is intrinsically tied to his quirk and even now, he only uses it to harm himself to eventually get to his father again

his quirk, something that is a huge part of him and his physiology, is based on emotion. his emotion controls his fire. and in his formative years, the foundation of the strongest relationship in his life was all based around self harm

Lev St. Valentine

"came back wrong" this "lived wrong" that, what about dying wrong. my death will forever cling to you, leaving behind a slimy trail and a metallic taste in your mouth. my soul will forever drag you down like the heavy corpse of a long-dead god, who somehow still grants wishes. you can't tell which one of us is the one not letting go. you know not even your own death will end this.

the fact that virtually nothing changed in mha society is giving me hives because what do you mean the hero ranking system - which is so deeply capitalist it makes my blood boil - is still in place? what do you mean every member of the lov is either dead or in a worse position from where they started? what do you mean that people in society who everyone ignored or that whole entire systems let down were just thrown away like trash? what do you mean no heroes were held accountable for the harm they caused? i’m about to write so much fucking fic because how the fuck else am I to move on

mha villains: i love my friends so much that with the power of friendship we will change this world so that everyone can live in peace and not get ridiculed and abused for their differences! and i kill people.

mha heroes: i think youre creepy so stand still while i bash your brains out. i like fighting so much i'll hurt anyone who crosses me. victims of abuse should shut the fuck up about it cause i dont care and neither does anyone else if they know what's good for them. i refuse to change if it means someone else's life might get better, but i'll be out of a job. and i kill people.

Just wanted to say, I just saw your post about Chuuya's loyalty again, and when I read the tag on it mentionning your theory about Mori's involvement in Chuuya's past... I was confused for a minute and then I scrambled for my notes to know when did Yosano join the War when did Mori write his theory on abilities' as weapons

You sent me in a spiral with that one comment I'm still reeling. Is that where you were going with it???

hehehe

Tbh I need to reread the manga because I totally forgot about Mori's theory on weponizing abilities until you reminded me but it sure as hell is adding fuel to my theory, huh?

Basically I read a post about how real life Nakahara Chuuya had ties to Mori Ougai through his family, to the point where the poet spread rumors that he was named "Chuuya" because of Mori (he wasn't). Here's the post if you're interested.

But basically it points out that "N" could be referring to "Nakamura", instead of "Nakahara" like N claimed in Stormbringer. N lied about Chuuya being a copy instead of the original, so why would he not lie about this, too?

Real life Nakamura and Chuuya's father served in the military under RL Mori Ougai's command. In the Light Novel, it's mentioned that Chuuya's father had a high military rank, and not only that, he was also a doctor.

My theory is this.

In the world of BSD, N, Mori, and the man we learn to be Chuuya's father all served together during the War(tm) and became close. Both N and Mori were interested in harnessing abilities for military warfare. They learn about Nakaraha's son, a kid who just so happens to have an ability that could be manipulated into a singularity and conspire to take him away (the video and N's speech in the LN implies Chuuya's original ability might have been? Amplifying other abilities?? Which is super interesting, considering, y'know, Dazai's nullification ability).

N implies that the original ability user died in the creation of the singularity, but we know that's not the case. Also, here's an interesting tidbit from N's monologue: "The Arahabaki Project was, more or less, a highly classified state secret after all. Only one person was granted insight authorization."

He couldn't be referring to himself, he was one of the researchers. So why is this an important tidbit to mention?

What if Mori is the person who was offered insight authorization. This makes sense timeline-wise, considering that by the end of the project Mori would have still been in the military and Yosano would have still been under his command.

Mori knew the whole time who Chuuya was. He also knew Chuuya was human the entire time, hence why he so easily pointed out the graphite scar at the end, how he knew who Chuuya's parents were. And at some point in the future, this is gonna be revealed, and Chuuya is gonna find out.

Aaand that's my theory. I could go on about how this might tie in to that "storm on the horizon" sequel the novel was hinting at, but- idk. I might be completely off to be honest XD.

Lev St. Valentine

Reading Storming Bringer, and the phrase in this quote's got me thinking

'That was when Chuuya noticed Verlaine's lingering gravity was absorbing the metallic particles'

But, at this point in the story, Verlaine was unconscious until a few seconds ago and he's not coherent when he wakes up and the narration doesn't mention him specifically activating his ability in relation to whats happening to him.

Just his 'lingering gravity'.

And a little before this, there's this quote:

'The battle was over, but the remnants of the gravitational waves were still rumbling through the woodlands'

Again more lingering effects of Verlaine's ability, this time affecting the landscape where he used his ability.

So like, what if, when Chuuya or Verlaine use their abilities an excessive amount, their person and/or the space they used it in gets distorted for a while.

Imagine Chuuya almost having a magnetic pull for a bit. He reaches for his mug and as his hand gets closer it slides towards him. He's walking down the street in autumn and the leaves keep sticking to him like he's full of friction.

Or sometimes it's a push and objects keep sliding away from him. Someone bumps into him in the hallway and they get pushed back. Chuuya has to try and explain he didn't just shove them. His pen keeps rolling away from him on his desk when he goes to note something down.

What if, for a while the gravity was just messed up in Suribachi City and anywhere else Chuuya activated Corruption??

Imagine if there was a myth that the centre of Suribachi was heavier than the outer circle, that you couldn't jump as high, that if you carried a crate towards he centre of the city you would literally feel it increasing in weight. The older houses all lean towards the centre, some people say it's the terrible craftsmanship of cheap houses, other say it the strange pull of Suribachi city. Rumours that you could never really leave the city because you would feel the heart of it pulling you right back.

Imagine the forest where he fought Lovecraft being literally scarred as the trees all seem lean into the clearing, their branches all stretching in and down towards the centre. The animals instinctively avoiding that space because they know something is off and they don't like it. If the birds fly too close to the ground they get confused.

People tell stories of the monster that appeared in the alley way one day and ate half the street. When they tried to rebuild houses there, accidents kept happening on the construction site, nobody could explain it, but the air just felt dense. As if the creature that ate the street did not want humans to reclaim it.

Just Chuuya unintentionally being the cause of many "supernatural" sites in Yokohama.