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You alive?
yes just so busy, soso sorry!! โน๏ธ๐ค
hi sweets! i promise iโll be getting to requests soon! kisskiss ๐ค
HELLO ????? THE WEEKND???? IS TJIS THE BEST GRAMMYS EVER ????????
JUNG HOYEON disclaimer in venice
hiiii sweets! iโve unpublished all of my works due to some personal stuff, but some of them will come back! itโll mostly be the john b writings, but some of the jj stuff may come back too! sorry for any inconvenience! ๐ค
โ photos in your phone from your life in the outer banks as jjโs girl
๏ฃฉ personapeters 2024 โ all rights reserved โข masterlist
plsplspls send requests guys i have sm motivation but no ideas ๐
(especially for my sweet boy john b โบ๏ธโบ๏ธ)
trying to seductively get on my knees for you but my knees crack so loud it echoes and iโm stuck there for five minutes
boyfriend!john b is a biter!!! doesnโt matter if itโs during a make out or if you guys are just sitting in each others company. he will bite!!
you two were in the chateau on the couch. everyone seemed to be away today, but out of danger. so perfect opportunity to make out, right?
your hands connected at the back of his head while his hands cupped your cheeks. he was laying on top of you, slowly trailing his kisses away from your mouth and onto your neck. you closed your eyes and leaned your head back, fingers running through his hair.
you were lost in the utter bliss of the feeling. you didnโt know making out could actually feel good until you did it with john b. your thoughts were quickly drawn from your mind when you felt a slightly painful pinch followed by a wet kiss. you tilted your head back up and pushed his head up to meet your gaze.
โdid youโ did you just bite me?โ your words came out through giggles. he didnโt answer for a moment, he kissed your jaw and hummed.
โmaybeโ
his tone was smug and it only made you wanna laugh more. you couldnโt tell if what he just did was cute or if you were just in the heat of the moment.
no, it was definitely cute. attractive, even. sloppy kisses began to pepper your skin again, the occasional pinch of his teeth and the soothe of his tongue after.
you were so obsessed with him it was insane. it kinda made you wanna bite him back.
do NOT let the slogan trick you, the outer banks is most certainly not paradise on earth. try hell on the water. fugitive on land. drowning at sea. dehydration in the desert. being shanked by your father for no reason at all. consider this your warning.
boyfriend!john b who you genuinely have to be cautious around when near water because he WILL push/throw you in
you guys are hanging out on the dock outside of the chateau. its the most stress free everyone has felt in a while. you were both standing, big mistake. you couldnโt even process what was happening before he was grabbing you while you were squealing and kicking your legs.
you came back above the water, jj, pope, and kiara all looking the other direction to hide their laughter. โjohn booker routledge!โ you screamed, pushing wet hair out of your face. โwhat about my phone?!โ you panicked for a moment before looking up at him. a stupid smile plastered on his face as he held your phone up. โthereโs something.. wrong with you..โ is all you said, he laughed and put his hand out to help you up onto the dock. you looked at jj and then at your phone, he quickly took it from john bs hand and you pulled him in the water.
you stayed above the water and covered your mouth, hiding your laughs. he came back to surface and shook his head, water droplets flying from his hair. โokay, i deserved thatโ he mumbled and splashed water in your face.
pairings: john b x fem!reader
Info/warnings: anxiety, established new relationship, fem!reader but can maybe be read as gender neutral.
asks: open! ๐๐
a/n: based off the song above!! just thought itโd be comforting especially as someone who struggles with anxiety!!
โif you wanna love me, try to get inside my brain. experience is nothing compared to the nights I'm always up so lateโ
itโs the third time this week youโve woken up in a cold sweat, anxious for no reason that you can recall. you feel bile rise in your throat and wonder if throwing up will make the feeling go away. you go to the small kitchen and get a glass of water, trying not to wake john b or jj. you thought sleeping on the couch of the chateau would help with your recent sleep troubles, but you clearly thought wrong. you leaned against the counter and chugged the water before lightly placing it in the sink.
everything seemed so fast yet so slow when you got like this. you felt a sense of impending doom but also felt like it would never end. you didnโt even notice your own crying until a tear fell onto your grey tank top, the water mark visible. you wiped your eyes and moved to sit on the kitchen floor. you figured itโs better than jj waking up to you crying on the couch near him.
you tucked your knees into your chest and tried to take deep breaths, but every breath you took felt like it just wasnโt deep enough. you felt your body tingling and put your head into your hands. you wanted the feeling to go away, how is it that rest is the thing thatโs supposed to help and yet you canโt stay asleep for more than 3 hours? you were so caught in your thoughts that you didnโt even notice the sound of footsteps out into the kitchen. Your ears were ringing and you felt unreal.
it wasnโt until he sat down by you that you noticed john b was awake, and in the room with you. you lifted your gaze but didnโt look at him. โIโm sorry john b, I didnโt mean to wake you.โ your words were choked out, and if you werenโt so caught up in your own thoughts then maybe youโd feel bad for yourself. You felt his hand around your upper back as he pulled you closer to him. you could tell he was tired by his slow movement and you felt terrible. he broke the silence with a whisper. โwasnt you that woke me, just had to use the bathroom.โ you knew it was a lie, but you also knew that his intentions were good.
you leaned your head on his shoulder and let out a shaky breath, tears still occasionally falling. โbee, i dunno whatโs wrong with me..โ your words were mumbled but understandable. you felt him shake his head as his hand came up to stroke your hair. โi knowโ is all he said. and yet, those two words seemed to make you feel slightly better. he didnโt invalidate you, he didnโt call you dramatic or say thereโs nothing wrong. Instead he acknowledged it and let you know that he understands.
โwishing i still had my dreams. late night started, take up space. 'cause every time i try to remember, lack of sleep takes half my brainโ
you couldnโt tell how long you guys sat there for, but he let you cry to him. he let you express the same things you expressed the night before, and the night before that. and he actually listened, he responded when it was right and stayed quiet when you needed him to. you donโt know how you got so lucky. your relationship was still so new you didnโt know how he was okay with dealing with this. how was he okay dealing with you?
he rubbed your shoulder before slowly standing up, you knew he wasnโt leaving the room though. he took down a plastic cup from the cabinet and opened the fridge. he poured a bit of milk in the cup before bringing it to the microwave and putting it in for a minute. you looked up at him and furrowed your brows. when it was done he took it out and handed it to you.
โit helps calm you downโ my dad used to do it for me when i was younger.โ you nodded at him slowly and gave him a small smile, even with tear stained cheeks and somewhat messy hair he thought you were gorgeous. you took a few sips of the milk before setting it down. he moved to sit back down, but this time directly in front of you. his hand moved to rest on your knee as his thumb rubbed back and fourth comfortingly. you felt terrible keeping him up, you felt terrible bringing all of these feelings you had into his home.
โyou can go back to bedโ you affirmed him, he only shook his head and moved his hand from your knee to your hand. โi need to know youโre asleep firstโ his words made you wanna cry again. you couldnโt fall back asleep, not tonight anyway. you didnโt want to keep him awake and waiting for nothing. โi canโt.โ you murmured. john b looked up at the clock on the wall that was surly an hour behind and bit his inner lip.
โif you want, you could stay with me in my bed. if you want to, only if you want toโ
โcome lay with me.โ his words were spoken in a quick whisper, but werenโt hesitated. you focused your gaze more on him now and furrowed your brows before slowly shaking your head. you spoke, your voice broken. โiโm not gonna make you do that.โ you felt like such a burden. even if he didnโt show it, your mind told you thatโs what you were.
โyouโre not making me do anything. i want you to.โ again, his words were sure. you thought to yourself, looking at the cup of milk that sat beside you on the floor. you picked it up and took another small sip of it before placing it back down. โonly if you want to, though.โ his voice slightly startled you that time.
you scanned his face for any expression of a lie, for any hope that youโd turn him down. but it wasnโt there, he really did care. he really did want to help you feel better. you looked at him and nodded. โokay.โ
โif you want, you can go ahead and fix my head. if you want to, only if you want toโ
he took both of your hands and helped you up onto your feet, leaving the cup on the floor to be picked up in the morning. he led you to his room and shut the door. he was touching you so lightly, almost as if it was something physically wrong with you. he was just too good to you. he let you take the side of his bed near the wall while he took the outer end. he pulled the blanket up over the both of you and wrapped an arm around your stomach while the other moved up for his hand to brush through your hair.
โiโm no doctor, but for you iโll do anything i can to figure it outโ his words were a tired whisper in your ear, but they were genuine. heโs only as young as you, only as naive as you. but he would still spend hours with you on the kitchen floor listening. he would still do anything he could to get inside your mind and fix whatever makes you feel like this. for you heโs willing to do it his whole life. the thought of that is what put you to sleep, and with a kiss to your temple he drifted off beside you.
Sodapop Curtis the type of guy to fake sleep in the car so the homies will carry him inside and tuck him in
matt dillon lookalike contest in my bedroom, go!
i need nicholas alexander chavez so badly. you don't even understand, i'm so crazily desparate for this man. he's all i've been thinking about this weekend. i'm miserable.
this pic is so โiโm doing it, are you?โ
the inside out characters inside my mind
tough by lana and quavo is so dally x girly gf coded but especially this part like ugh i just see it
shut the fuck up. i cant do this anymore guys. who does he think he ISSSS๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ im mad like why does he think thatโs okay i canโt stand him!! i need him asap๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ like truly i dont think anybodyโs ever needed that man like EYE need that man
literally me
yall need to understand that i loved lazytown sm when i was a kid and i dont remember a single plot point. i dont even know the characters names or who they are. the one thing i do know is that i had a crush on sportacus.
Dallas winston fans need to learn how to be happy because why is every single fanfic/blurb request like โyou just got jumped by the socs and as youโre bleeding out you come to buckโs to visit your boyfriend dally only to walk in on him cheating on you with 3 different girls, when you confront him he laughs in your faceโ
and then itโs like โhereโs your request, hope you enjoy!!!โ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Rip greasers yโall would of cried if you guys saw how expensive things got from inflation
Rip socs yโall would cry knowing in 2024 yall are probably now middle class
evan peters in ariana grandeโs โwe canโt be friends (wait for your love)โ music video ๐ค
โhow can people sit on a train and not notice each other? how can people resist the urge to connect somehow?โฆcan people feel my eyes on them as I do theirs on me? do we all know that weโre here in this social prison system? why arenโt we more prepared to have more fun being human beings? will women ever outgrow the scars inflicted upon them by a world ruled by men? must my fantasies be stuck working overtime?โฆmy hair looks like shit and iโm feeling embarrassed and ugly all-around.โ oh jeff
how does getting a bf work like do i have to make a resume ooorrrโฆ
matthew gray gubler + glasses appreciation post !! (the second pic literally has me clawing at the screen)
Nah bc Iโd be crying too if Johnny gave me this fuck ass haircut he got Ponyโs shit uneven as hell ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
sheโs allergic to flopping