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Death is creeping in

I feel it in my skin

Can I reach the light

If I don’t want to live

Holding on to life

Is not my fight to fight

If I’m not with you

remembering your beautiful laugh feels like a knife through the heart

I'll search for you in every person I meet

They say being addicted to a person is more dangerous than being addicted to a drug. Too bad I've never been one to heed advice.

I can't give you the stars

Because they aren't mine to give away

But I can carve your name into my skin

Because I was always yours to begin with

Bittersweet

I love you and hate you, both at the same time.

I love the way you say my name, but I hate that it's always out of disappointment.

I love the way you smile, but I hate that it's never towards me.

I love the way you talk, but I hate that you would never talk to me first.

I love the way you look, but I hate that you never look at me.

I love the way you care about others, but I hate that you never care about me.

I love the way you pay attention to detail, but I hate that I'm the only one you ignore.

I love the way you just exist. But I hate that it wouldn't matter to you if I didn't.

I hate loving you.

But you love hating me.

Curiosity

You always greeted me with a smile

Asked me how I was, how my day was going

I smiled back and told you I was fine

But I think you knew I was lying

Because my smile never quite reached my eyes

The way yours always seemed to do

And sometimes the words came out flat

Like I never really believed them

You were always the curious cat

You poked and prodded till I gave in

I resisted a lot, putting up walls

But you broke them right down

But curiosity has a heavy price

You couldn't handle what you saw

The expanse of my damage was unfathomable

Too much for you to stomach

You quickly tried to backpedal

But the damage was done

In your hurry you stepped on my heart

Which was already broken, and now crushed

The horrors of my soul were too much for you to bear

And I can understand why it was so

Because I've lived with them this long

And you never got a chance to get used to them like I did

You abandoned the shattered pieces of my heart

I tried to pick them up and mend them

But the jagged edges just cut me deeper

And left me bleeding once again

They say curiosity killed the cat

But it wasn't you who died

It was the endless possibilities that we could have had

And I was left with the ghost of what could have been

Maybe it's better this way

You'll be safe now, away from me

But the fact that hurts the most is that

Your curiosity was what led us to our demise