1st DBH Playthrough; Missed So Many Action Buttons Because Connor Is Just So Pretty It’s Distracting

The Archivist

Me trying to flirt: would you like to watch The Lord of the Rings (extended editions)

gay people can never be normal they always gotta say some shit like "he was a being formed in the very poetry of nature. his wild and enthusiastic imagination was chastened by the sensibility of his heart. his soul overflowed with ardent affections, and his friendship was of that devoted and wondrous nature that the worldly-minded teach us to look for only in the imagination".

never fails to frustrate how many people online hold steadfast to the belief that fiction materially affects reality (as opposed to a reflection; media-as-mirror, harm coming from pre-formed factors) yet insist on adding “in fiction” as a post-requisite to discussing something like the believability of trauma. calling a little life by hanya yanagihara “euthanasia fan fiction”: hidden there is the acknowledgment of a severance between fiction & reality but only, as always, under conditions that allow people to disregard and dismiss victims. swearing that if someone develops or projects a form of their trauma in/onto an incest narrative then they are contributing to rates of incestuous abuse itself (or, here, of suicide, self-harm, etc); immediately dropping the whole compassion-prevention charade to swear there are levels of abuse where a line is crossed and it starts to sound ridiculous, fanciful. trauma hypochondriacs: no way there can be that much suffering in someone. a very real, material perception, that affects quality of treatment, of communal support. and so we deride the book and its author and call it “trauma porn” (a phrase that makes me break out in hives), say its graphicness and excessiveness made us just want the main character to kill themselves already, because hey, we would, and fail to see how disgusting that is to say, because hey, it’s fiction, we would react differently if it was real — because of course fiction affects reality, but our virulent & vitriolic responses to it, that victims everywhere can see, do not

neil

oh yeah i love annotating

I know Hayden said Punish can be interpreted however we want but there is something so disturbing yet fascinating how without the context it’s so easy to relate to the song for whatever reason anyone has.

The first time I listened to it I genuinely thought that it was one of the most relatable songs, describing perfectly some of my feelings and thoughts. Then I read about the initial meaning behind it and just went “….oh”

She’s genuinely that good of a songwriter it’s insane.

for JUDE ST. FRANCIS from A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara

the diaries of franz kafka, franz kafka / ojibwa / simone de beauvoir, from a letter to jean-paul sartre / manuscript of the brothers karamazo, fyodor dostoevsky / how to cure a ghost, fariha róisín / postcolonial love poem, 'american arithmetic', natalie díaz / life of the party, 'we all got burnt that summer', olivia gatwood / saint stephen by john everett millais / the sorrow festival, erin slaughter / women of the fertile crescent: an anthology of modern poetry by arab women 'jebu', etel adnan / beast at every threshold, 'ten years after diagnosis', natalie wee

i cannot even phantom how much gender envy Neil Josten gives me

please do not follow me if you are an ed account. i dont want anything to do with that thx

(also do have in mind i am an adult - especially if you do not have your own age in your bio!)