sensitive-sailor

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You wait your whole life trying to grow up and make sense of the chaos in your world.

Only to find out you're gonna go even more crazy

Do you sometimes wish none of it happened?

Soo what can I do..run away?

But not too far

Two years ago when I was inpatient, I made a friend that I could study scripture with and offer up prayer requests. He offered to pray with me, over me, quite a few times... untii one night I finally agreed. We strolled down to the end of the hallway after groups had let out where it'd be quieter. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders, me being quite short and he taller, somewhat pulled me into his side as he began to pray.

"Lord protect her from the men here, for these men are like wolves coming for her... protect this woman, no this, well she's more like a - little girl- Father --"'"Lord protect her from the men here, for these men are like wolves coming for her... protect this woman, no this, well she's more like a - little girl- Father --"

At this point, my mind snapped out of the prayer and began to wonder. "Little girl??"

Who the hell is he calling 'little girl'! After he finished the prayer, I decided that I was fine being alone with my faith during my stay.

A few days later, in group, I had taken a seat at the table in front of the large room full of chairs so I could color during session. The table was there for those of us that found it hard to pay attention or focus, those who fidgeted a lot, and simply needed to multi-task.

The group leader that day began a discussion with a question. She asked if there was a time or way that we felt underestimated, or doubted, when we were judged with preconcieved notions based on appearance or other factors.

I raised my handn almost immediately, to which she called on. "I feel that way here," I started, resuming coloring the cute animal picture in front of me. "I find child-like therapy very productive and soothing, considering I didn't have any semblance of a proper childhood. It's good to nurture and reconnect with your inner child - I like coloring, stuffed animals, stickers, crafts - and because of this, I've even been called a little girl.

Which is quite the opposite of what I am. I have debilitating chronic illnesses invisible to most that I fight everyday and am truly a warrior."

I knew he was sitting in the room, and heard me.

I DO love stuffies and glow in the dark everything, stickers, puzzles, coloring books, crafts, juice, cartoons - all of it.

Our inner child is still there, always. Just hiding. After 28 years, I found her. 💗

i would stand here with some of you

sweet cuppin' cakes

new fave nomnom is

🧊frozen superman flavored gogurt🍨

No this is this universe

Best weekend of 2025 so far 🏙🌉🌃🌇🏀🏈⚾🦅⛹️‍♂️🍽🥨🍪🍻🍟💃🕺🌬🧤🧣☔☂❄❤️‍🔥🪐🍃☘️🕹⚔️🧫🧪🧼🎀🪄🏴‍☠️🐺🌕✌ treated by my tiny pack... So much love from Philly.

My diet is really wild

I won't eat anything but like a few pieces of fruit for several days

Balanced meals?

Hell no a whole dill pickle followed by a frozen Gogurt and

Several cups of ice

And like a plate of nachos???

No wonder I have weird dreama

Help

we exist in moments.

all along the universe has had some invisible string tying me to you

And I finally see myself

Unabridged and overwhelmed

A mess of a story I'm ashamed to tell

But I'm slowly learning how to break this spell

Good Tidings 🎄🎅❄️🦌 / Yuletide 12.23.2024

HARRY POTTER AND THE CHAMBER OF SECRETS 2002 | dir. Chris Columbus

The path ahead is treacherous. pt 2

"The path ahead is treacherous, but it is rewarding."

My heart sank deep into my stomach as I read the ominous message from my fortune cookie. It was a message from my guides, and very real, I was certain. Chills ran up my spine. As my heart began to race, I glanced down at my arms to notice goosebumps raising. These are small inclinations that spirit is close by.

My eyes scrolled over the text again.

The path ahead is treacherous.

The path had already been quite bloody treacherous, and there were even more dark storm clouds looming on the horizon. I could feel the heaviness in the air, sinkiing into my skin, down into my bones, taking up residence inside of my cells and atoms.

It's nearly laughable how many times I've fucked myself over because I ignore my foresight, doubt strong warnings in my gut, or simply decide that "I am not going to be affected by this (usually the stars)."

I took this as a very, very serious warning. I saw how the first part of the journey would inevitably end, but how it'd come to pass, I couldn't truly know or guess.

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Several years later, I'm hunched over on on my father's basement couch, sobbing into my palms, broken, bruised, when the fortune from so long ago comes to mind.

This is the beginning, of the end, finally, I realized.

wolves don't lose sleep over the opinions of sheep

I've been fighting invisible monsters in my sleep.

Or so it would appear to on-lookers.

These monsters are very real.

Today I woke up punching the shit out of my pillow.

[from july 1 2024 / posted 12.23.24 11:22am]

I wrote this 5 years ago, and don't remember it. I am confident enough today to share during the anniversary of my NDE:

Last year, my relationship with reality and time changed when I had a near death experience. There is no handbook to help navigate and ease me into the transition, and however tactful the spiritual leaders who guide or have guided me try to be, there is raw truth that surrounds the perceptions i encounter. There is a particular undeniable element to the visions, much like intuition but a stronger knowing backed up by irrefutable sensory evidence.

Then there's knowing higher beings.

The compassion and love surrounding me from the angels and my guides protects me from most ramifications of exposure. No words can express the gratitude for my salvation.. and yet the nature of what I have experienced has been quite maddening.

And madness came when. I felt the heavy weighted cloak of sadness upon my soul. I realized the damage that had been done under my unknowing subservience to malevolent forces.

I am healing. I am regaining control of my consciousness. I am practicing discipline and acceptance that there is. No. Easy. Way. Through. This.

No shrink or shaman or act of man will be able to heal the wounds that linger. I am at God's mercy alone, may my heart and mind be guarded steadfastly.

all my favorite kind of clouds ☁️🌱🌬

i live and die by the Big Beat manifesto 🎧🎤🎵🥁

The manifesto. #offtheweb #superhans #bigbeatmanifesto #electronicmusic #peepshow (at Downtown Los Angeles)

So Hilda season 3. (This post has nothing to do with hilda season 3)

I don't know what I did to deserve you. Well, believe it, baby. I'm all yours.

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Together when the moon sets

july 1 / dark matter

dj kosmik kitten in da klub to fuxk shizzz up

portal hoppin feline specilizing in intergalatik tomfoolery and out of this planet beatzzz

🚀outer space kitten is back online and reporting for duty...copy that.🛸🌠🔭

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me: if i die here, will you throw my body in the trash? [laying flat groaning] keichii: yeah. me: thank you.

Full Moons 2023

Happy Good Friday ✝️ 🕊

♡ butterfly bun ♡ prints. 

Wings of the Cosmos by LhuneArt

Happy Indigenous Peoples’ Day!

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