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hello there. i wrote this because im pissed off and id like other people to know that it is okay to be sad over a stupid boy because its normal, their all dicks :) (other than the one direction boys, they have my heart 😻😻)

i would just like to add that im okay, and just like billie eilish once said

“But next week, i hope that somewhere laughing

For anybody asking, i promise i’ll be fine”

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It’s currently 2:12 in the morning on boxing day and im sat in bed holding back tears because i hate you.

I hate how you made me feel like I was the most beautiful and amazing girl in the world and that no one compared to me.

I hate how you would fall asleep on call with me after telling me you love me more than life itself leaving me with a heart full of warmth.

I hate how you put in so much effort to connect and talk to my friends even though you didn’t like them just to see the smile and laugh on my face.

I hate how you would call me petnames like,my princess, sweetheart and baby because it would make me blush and giggle to myself and feel like a little girl being called pretty for the first time in her new poofy dress

I hate how you would take genuine interest in my day and my interests and ask me questions I hadn’t even thought of myself that makes me feel giddy and excited to answer knowing you would judge me, just listen with smile on your face.

I hate how you promised you would come see me when the time was right and make memories with me that I could keep in the necklace I got for us that you never knew about because you left to quick.

I hate how you lied to me and told me she wouldn’t be that part of your life again because she hurt you more than you could ever think of.

I hate how your going to get hurt again and feel the same pain I saw in you when we first met even though I told you to let her go, not for me but for yourself.

I hate how your not there for me to go to after something fun has happened and I need to show someone pictures and something silly my friends did.

I hate how your not there for me to come to when I need to sleep but struggle because your not there to tell me ‘Sweet dreams my princess, I love you more than you will know’.

I hate how you make me feel now that your gone, like theres a hole in my sad little heart no one can fill but you and your stupid curls.

I hate how much I love you after only a short amount of time and how I trusted you to stay with me and not leave without warning like the others.

I hate how it's not hate; it's the ache of missing someone I loved too quickly. Trusting you to break the cycle, to stay when others left abruptly, only deepens the sting. I hate the lingering love after such a brief encounter, the self-loathing for getting attached too easily. In just a week and a bit, you became a tear-stained chapter, leaving me to grapple with emotions that linger far beyond our time together.

So, here I am, torn between hating you for the hurt and missing you despite it all. It's a complex web of emotions, and I grapple with the reality of loving you within a remarkably short time, only to find myself hurt and questioning my own vulnerability. But in the end I just want you to know that I don’t hate you, I just hate who she makes you.

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HEY POOKIES!! i have finished the first chapter of the nialls sister story and it will be out at 4:00 GMT tonight!!!

okay. i havent been on here for a hot minute but, i got some exciting stuff while i was gone!!!

right the first one is for my oneD besties okay okay….

are we ready????

i was bamboozled when i found this.

LIKE OMG. FLABBERGASTED. SMELLS AS GOOD AS I REMEMBER ASWELL.

BRAND NEW IN BOX WITH WRAPPING FROM VINTED. AHH. AND IT WAS A STEAL!!!

OKAY THIS ONE IS FOR MY HARRIES OKAY OKAY?

THIS IS AMAZING.

SIMPLE YET FAB.

im pissed off bc i look hot as fuck right now but i cant get any good GOD DAMN PICTURES

you walk into the trailer unannounced and eddie is splayed out on the sofa watching porn starring a woman who looks startlingly similar to you. he’s got one hand around his fat cock and the other rubbing over his bare chest.

he closes his legs immediately and hides himself with a nearby blanket, muttering a thousand apologies.

he doesn’t know how to act or what to do. he’s not finished and his body is screaming at him for release. the unfortunately thin-blanket hides almost nothing and your gaze is firmly fixed on the ever-so-prominent bulge.

and you end up doing the last thing that he expects you to: you ride him exactly how the woman was in the porno.

(NSFW AUDIO WARNING)

(since u wanted more @darlingdia1007 🫶)

Jonny's Place

Harry's House Masterlist Summary: Harry realises he likes YN more than just a friend.

Harry had always known he’s loved YN. They’d grown up together since they were babies as their Mums were best friends. Following in their Mums footsteps, they become best friends too. Each night after school they would be in either one’s house, or as they got a tad bit older they would head out to the greenery situated behind their houses. 

It wasn’t until YN came to live at their house when her Mum passed in an accident, and her father and step-mum decided to leave her without a home that Harry realised his love for YN was more than platonic.

He remembers comparing the feelings he felt for YN and how he felt for his other girl friends, Jenny and Fern. Sure, he liked them and enjoyed hanging out with them but he didn’t feel like he wanted to impress them or he didn’t feel jealous at the thought of them being with another boy. But when he thought about YN being someone else’s, he felt anxious. 

He began to feel nervous around her, stuttering when he tried to speak. His tummy would flutter when he would hear her laugh or smile at him. He couldn’t help but notice the little changes in her appearance as they grew older. He’d catch himself staring at her a little too long and Jonny raising his eyebrows at him in a questioning way, but Harry would shyly look away when he’d get caught.

Harry hadn’t admitted his feelings to anyone, until Jonny began to question him one evening after football. It was just the two of them left after the session and Jonny had caught Harry staring or acting shy around YN for a while. 

Jonny was in the middle of tying his shoe lace as Harry was putting his things into his bag. “So what’s up with you and YN?”.

Harry kept his focus on placing his stuff into the bag to avoid looking in Jonny’s direction. “I don’t know what you’re talking about”.

A scoff left Jonny‘a lip and a small chuckle. “Oh c’mon mate…you literally stare at her anytime she speaks…or shall I mention your stutter every time you talk to her”.

“I…I…I’m just confused”. Harry admitted his genuine confusion if he still saw YN as a friend or more.

“Confused about what?” Jonny didn’t understand. 

Harry stood up and glanced at his friend. “I think I like her more than just a friend.”.

“And what’s wrong with that?”. Jonny continued to question Harry, not really understanding what the big deal was.

“It’s hard because we live in the same house, it’s not easy to tell her I like her more than a friend.”. Harry was getting frustrated, he just wished the situation was simpler.

“She likes you too.” Jonny stated, almost like it was fact.

Harry’s head shot to look at Jonny. “What do you mean?”.

“YN likes you too…I can tell.”. 

“How are you so sure?”. Harry wanted to believe Jonny, but it was too good to be true.

“Just believe me man…I don’t just notice how you look at her, I see how she looks at you too.”. 

Harry had a slight smirk on his face, he couldn’t believe that maybe YN liked him more than a friend too. 

“You’ve got it bad mate…look at your face.” Jonny teased Harry.

“Oh shut up Jon…I still don’t know how to make a move though.” Harry confessed. He’d thought of everything, but nothing seemed right.

Jonny shrugged his shoulders. “Don’t over think it H…we’ve got film night tomorrow night at mine, she always sits next to you so just be casual and make your move then.”.

Maybe Jonny was right, perhaps he needed to stop putting the pressure on himself. 

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It was Saturday which means Harry and YN were working in the bakery this morning. They both enjoyed it, it means they could still spend time together, earn money and get to joke around with the women who worked there. 

After they finished their shift at the bakery, Harry and YN walked home. Anne made them both some lunch which they both ate and chatted about school with her. 

“So where are you both going tonight?”. Anne asked Harry and YN as they finished eating their lunch, knowing that every Saturday they went to a friends house or Anne’s.

“We’re going to Jonny’s tonight for a film night.”. Harry told him mum. 

“Be careful..and if you need me to pick you both up just let me know.”. Anne spoke to the two teenagers, before they went off to their rooms to get ready. 

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Harry and YN walked together over to Jonny’s house. On the way, YN spoke “Um..there’s a girl in my maths class..and she’s friends with this boy…but she thinks she likes him more than a friend…and she doesn’t know what she should do.”. 

Harry couldn’t help but think of the irony of what YN had just explained because that’s the predicament he was in right now. “And what did you say to her?”.

YN shrugged her shoulders as they continued to walk side by side. “I didn’t say anything…what do you think she should do?”.

Harry thought a little before he spoke, knowing he was in the exact same position as this girl. “I suppose it’s hard…because she probably doesn’t want to jeopardise their friendship…but at the same time doesn’t want to regret not telling him how she is feeling.”.

They didn’t finish their conversation as they had arrived at Jonny’s house. The others hadn’t arrived yet, meaning it was just Harry, YN and Jonny. YN excused herself to use the bathroom, leaving Harry and Jonny alone.

“Have you made your move yet?”. Jonny asked Harry, desperate to know if his friends had stopped mopping around.

Harry shook his head. “No but on the way over here…she was talking about this girl in her maths class who likes her friend more than just a friend.”.

Jonny stared at Harry, not believing how naive he was being right now. “She’s talking about herself.”.

Harry frowned his eyebrows. “What?”.

“There is no girl in her maths class who’s told her that…I sit next to YN and she doesn’t speak to anyone else.”. Jonny admitted.

Harry rubbed his hands over his face. “What is going on?”.

“H…YN was talking about herself…she wanted to see what your reaction would be”. 

Before Harry could respond YN came back into the room. “What are you guys talking about?”. YN asked, as she took the seat next to Harry.

“Nothing.” Harry was quick to say, sending Jonny a look.

Soon Noah, Fern and Jenny arrived with bags of snack and drinks ready for their movie night. 

Whilst the boys prepared the snacks and drinks in the kitchen, the girls set up the living room with blankets, pillows and duvets and a few fairy lights around the tv. The boys had chosen an action film to put on, because the girls had chosen a film the last time they had a movie night. 

The group were all laying on the floor, where the duvet, blanket and pillows had been set up. Fern and Jenny were sat together, with Noah and Jonny next to them and Harry and YN the opposite side.

Harry could feel Jonny’s eyes glancing in their direction every so often. But Harry chose to keep his eyes on the scream in front of him. He was aware how close YN was to him, he could feel their arms brushing every now and then.

He felt his phone vibrate against his leg. He thought it may have been been his mum checking on them, something she did every time they were out.

Jonny: Make your move

Harry took a glance at Jonny and shook his head at how risky that would be. But before Harry got chance to put his phone back in his pocket, another message from Jonny came up.

Jonny: Put your arm around her, a friendly cuddle won’t harm😉

Harry knew YN wasn’t a huge fan of physical affection, and that was down to her father for being so cruel to her. But for whatever reason, she never flicked Harry’s hand away if he teased her like she did when Jonny or Noah did it. 

Not wanting to think too much about it, Harry gently placed his arm around the back of where YN was sitting. He thought she may have moved away but what surprised him was when YN moved closer and rested her head on his shoulder.

Harry smiled to himself, proud that he’d actually managed to make the first step and proud that YN accepted physical affection. Jonny sent him a big thumbs up, he was proud of his friend.

YN stood up from a place a little while later, making heads turn at her sudden movement. “I’m going to get some fresh air a minute.”. Before she headed towards the kitchen and the back door could be heard opening.

“I’m going to check on her.”. Harry announced, wanting to make sure she was okay. The others agreeing, knowing it was best if Harry was the one to go. 

As Harry walked outside into Jonny’s garden, he noticed YN sitting on the garden swing. Approaching her, he asked “Hey…everything alright?”, before sitting down next to her. 

“I lied to you earlier.” YN’s voice was quiet, shame written all over it. She didn’t look at Harry once.

Harry wasn’t sure what YN was referring to. “Lied about what?”.

“There was no girl in my maths class…I was talking about myself.”.

Harry’s heart was picking up some speed at the words. He couldn’t help but remember what Jonny had said to him earlier about YN talking about herself. How did Jonny know so much?

“So you like a boy more than a friend?”. Harry didn’t want to get his hopes up that the boy YN was talking about was him. 

YN nodded as her eyes met Harry’s. “Not just a boy….you.”.

“Can I tell you something?”. Harry’s voice came out quiet, not wanting to spoil the calm atmosphere. When YN nodded, he continued. “I like you more than a friend too.”.

YN’s tense shoulders were now relaxed, a huge weight had been lifted once she realised that Harry had been feeling the same way. “Really?”.

Harry chuckled, “Yes..really…why do you think I was trying to cuddle you in there?”.

YN shrugged her shoulders, still not quite believing this was real. “Thought you may have been cold.”.

“No…it’s because I don’t want us to just be friends anymore.”. Harry confessed.

“Me either.”. YN agreed, mirroring Harry’s smile. 

Taking Jonny’s advice about not thinking too much, Harry leaned in slightly towards YN and to his relief YN followed. Their lips were gentle against each others, Harry carefully brought his hand up to rest on YN’s cheek. 

They both pulled apart and giggled at how silly they had both been this whole time, and if only they had told each other sooner.

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After that night at Jonny’s place, Harry and YN decided it was best to keep being “friends” when they were at home. Their friends had found out pretty quickly as they were all stood peering around of the kitchen window, instead of watching the film. They had teased them when they returned inside but were also happy for their two friends.

It wasn’t unusual for Harry and YN to go for a walk together, so when the pair had announced they were going up to the bridge behind their house, Anne and Robin thought nothing of it. 

Harry was quick to interwine their hands as they walked up the path towards their favourite spot. They both enjoyed coming up to the river that was surrounded by fields and greenery. 

As they got to the river, they walked across the stones carefully, Harry helping YN across not wanting to let her fall. Harry challenged YN to see how far she could throw the stones into the water. But YN failed miserably, causing them to burst into laughter.

They continued their walk further up into the fields until they stopped to rest their legs by the trees. Catching YN off guard, as she stood against the tree, Harry held her cheeks in his hands and presses his lips to hers. The kiss become passionate, rushed and steamy compared to other kisses they had shared. 

They pulled apart when they heard some voices further down the field. They noticed a group of people walking back towards the path. “C’mon let’s go home.” Harry took YN’s hand and led them both back home. 

It was in that moment that Harry realised that Gemma had spotted them. 

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Nightmares.

HEYYYY! I can't tell whether I love this one shot or actually despise it- but anyway I wanted to post so there ya go! hope you enjoy!!!!!

P.S: Remember you can give requests whenever you want, I'm sure I will get round to them!

Steve Harrington x Fem!Reader

Summary: You have recuring dreams about eddie, your best friend's, death and you go to your loving boyfriend for help.

Warnings: minor panic attack, death, crying, mentions of funerals, my writing

Steve was fast asleep after a long day’s work when he got woken up by the sound of soft knocks through his window. He slowly opened his eyes and saw you with tears streaming down your face. Steve scrambled himself out of bed, throwing the covers off of him and going over to the window, pulling it open and pulling you into his arms. He stroked your hair as you pull yourself closer to him, whimpering in his arms “shh, shh it’s okay, you’re okay” He whispered to you, pressing a kiss to your temple. “It’s my f-fault, I didn’t- “ You tell him, wrapping your arms around your boyfriend’s neck. You had been having consistent nightmares for weeks ever since that night with Eddie...and the bats. You would wake up in a cold sweat, gasping for air, with tears running down your cheeks. They’re normally bad, but this was the worst one by far. Sou had been trying to stay awake to avoid the dreams and reminders that your best friend was gone, but as soon as you got home from work that day you couldn’t take it and fell asleep on your floor with your book in hand only to be greeted with the same recurring dream. Steve had offered for you to stay at his house till the dreams stopped as he could normally soothe you back into your normal sleep patterns with dreamless sleep, but you declined telling him that ‘you didn’t want to intrude’. “You didn’t do what, baby?” he spoke softly to you, not wanting to upset you anymore than you already were.

“I- I didn’t try to stop him... I didn’t protect him!” You admit to him as your breathing started to pick up again. Steve’s heart broke a little at you, telling him that, looking down at you with saddened eyes, he tucked a piece of your loose hair behind your eyes. “no, Eddie wanted to protect you, that’s why he went to distract them,” Steve told you with a sad smile and pulling your head towards his chest as he knew you liked to listen to his heartbeat. You didn’t say anything and just softly cried into his chest as he stroked your hair and whispered sweet nothings into your ear. You were very grateful to Steve. He was always there for you no matter what and would always calm you down when you needed it.

“Shh, baby, remember what we talked about? In and out, that’s it” Steve showed you that to do feeling you follow along with him and your crying starts to stop and your breathing starts to slow.

“I miss him...” You tell Steve weakly as you had now stopped crying and were now just liking Steve’s touch. “Shh, know you do baby, we all do..” Steve sighed, kissing your temple once again

“His funeral’s coming up, i dont know if anyone’s gonna come..” You sigh softly into steve’s shirt

“I know, at least he’ll have all the people who actually care about him there instead of a bunch of nobody’s, right?” Steve asked, looking down at you a little, getting a nod in return from you.

“Yeah that’s true, he didn’t like many people anyways… I have to write a speech for it and i dont know what to say.”

“I think you should just speak from the heart, share a few memories? You know, that sorta’ stuff!” 

“Yeah, yeah, he’d like that.” You nodded to yourself, agreeing with Steve and his ideas.

“I think I’m gonna wear that tux you like, but Eddie did say that it looked stupid,” Steve chuckled, thinking back to the memory. “He didn’t think you looked stupid, he was only making fun,” You told Steve, smiling up at him and joining in on the laughter.

“What are you thinking about wearing?” Steve asked, tilting his head slightly.

You think for a moment; you had been tossing between ideas for a while now but none seemed as perfect as one.

You smiled saying to Steve, “You know that little black dress he always liked? The one he said I had to take off before our first date because ‘it was too scandalous’? Think i might tease him with that one” 

“That is such a good idea, he’d hate us” You both laugh together remembering your friend.

After a few moments of silence you speak up, “I’m so tired..can we go to sleep?”

Stevenodded to you and picked you up and took you over to his bed and set you down softly where you fell asleep almost instantly.

Steve looked at you with loving yet sad eyes, he hated that you had to feel like this. You had just lost your best friend of sixteen years and no one knew the real reason other than the party and everyone involved in the incident a few weeks back.

“I love you baby, he loves you too..I know he’s so proud of you..and so am I.” Steve whispered as he drifted off with you.

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Harry's House

Summary: YN and Harry have been together since they were fifteen, childhood sweethearts. Follow their journey through fame, touring and an unexpected surprise, and everything in between.

2009:

Jonny's Place Harry realises he likes YN more than just a friend.

2012:

Two Pink Lines YN and Harry find out they're expecting a baby.

Our Baby YN and Harry have their first ultrasound.

Baby Styles Baby Styles arrives.

A Day With The Styles Family Spend the day with YN, Harry and baby Oliver.

2015:

Baby Styles #2 YN and Harry announce they are expecting Baby Styles number two.

When Three Becomes Four Oliver becomes a big brother.