Blame This Guy Named Tony For This Ok😭

recovery is not just dramatic stories of hospitals and flirting with death and the high of starvation.

it can be silent and it is still triumphant. it can happen in crowded chinese restaurants and cramped dressing rooms and between the pages of your journal and the long-neglected corners of your memories.

your recovery doesn’t have to be loud to matter.

there is strength and dignity in your quiet battle.

My soulmate need to hurry up & get me! bitch dont u see the world ending??

Wait wait WAIT! What are the manifestation tips? I’m tryna get like you 👀

The most important one was the scripting. Every day, starting August 1st, I made a list in my journal of everything I wanted. Like so (not my real list):

1. I will make new friends that are loyal, ambitious, and independent by September 2020.

2. I will learn French and be completely fluent by 2022.

I’d write my entire list, and I’d allow myself to tweak them as necessary as the days go on. For example, I might add to the first one a week later “my new friends will introduce me to higher circles and we will help each other move upwards in society.” After I write them all out, then I would repeat them out loud. This is the most important part in my opinion! The Bible says that the tongue holds power over life and death, and that whatever we ask for in truth we will receive. Even if you don’t subscribe to the faith, I highly recommend reading the Bible. Lots of nuggets of wisdom in there! Anyway, I say the list out loud. Throughout the day, I try to work it into conversations with other people so that my goals don’t stay with me only. For example, if a family member asks what you’ve been up to, you can say “I’m learning French. I want to be completely fluent by 2022.” For those who subscribe to the faith, after each recitation I also pray on my manifestations and ask God not only to allow me to be at peace with His divine timing, but also to prepare me into a woman who is ready to handle and accept the responsibilities that come with what I’m asking for. You can simply meditate also!

About halfway through the month, I changed the list from future tense to past/present tense. So my new list looked more like this:

1. I made new friends in September 2020. They are loyal, ambitious, and independent.

2. I’ve been completely fluent in French since 2022.

I still did the recitations, prayers, and conversations, but I spoke about them and thought about them as if they were something that already came to pass.

On the new moon (I think August 18th), I wrote a journal entry. I dated it August 18th and wrote as if the thing I was manifesting was my current life. It could look something like this:

“I went to lunch with the girls today and Amanda introduces us to her sister-in-law Kayla. She’s a CEO of her own company and her husband is the founder of a Fortune 500 company. I recognized her because she was recently featured in Forbes magazine. She’s very funny and beautiful, and she fit in with the group really well. We hit it off and when I explained that I was trying to find investors for my own business, she invited us all to an event her husband’s company is hosting in Paris! She seemed sure that there would be investor potential there and she promised to personally introduce me to as many people as she could. The rest of lunch quickly became about travel plans, schedules, and wardrobes. We’d all leave on the 12th of September on her husband’s private jet and meet him in Paris. We bought our hotel tickets right then and there then followed up lunch with a preemptive shopping trip. I’m so glad I became fluent in French all those years ago!”

That was a bit lengthy, but the idea is to be as specific as possible. When I finished, I folded up the paper, went outside at nighttime, and buried it into the ground. Literally, I planted the seed. On the next full moon, I think I’m going to write out any limiting beliefs I’m holding onto that would hinder my goals and then burn it.

But yeah. That’s what I’m doing, and I’ve really been seeing results. Doing things this way not only puts your intention out into the universe, but it also forces you to speak your intentions into existence, think about them constantly, and make decisions that align with those intentions over those that don’t (i.e. doing another French lesson over watching a fifth episode of Doom Patrol in a row).

If you want to know more, DM me!

[imperialist shill voice] HOW many TIMES does the cia have to engineer coups to install US puppets before people will stop ELECTING DICTATORS?????

gofundme.com

Legal Fees & Support Fund to Divorce Ramsey Orta organized by Jessica Orta

I, the wife of Ramsey Orta, am a survivor of domestic violence by Ramsey… Jessica Orta needs your support for Legal Fees & Support Fund to D

the following is the description from the gofundme page:

“

I, the wife of Ramsey Orta, am a survivor of domestic violence by Ramsey Orta during the Black Lives Matter movement. For those of you who don’t know me, my name is Jessica (Hollie) Orta, but I am known by Bella Eiko for live streaming the Occupy Oakland and Ferguson movements. 

Over the last few years I have spoken out about my relationship, and marriage, to Ramsey prior to his incarceration. Ramsey physically, mentally, emotionally abused and financially extorted my son and I as I tried to position myself to organize support for him during his incarceration. After I drove to Las Vegas to avoid any further attacks from him, he used the money given to him by the movement to chase me down to Las Vegas and terrorize myself, my son and my then 82 year old Great Aunt. He often threatened me with gang violence and gave my address to people who wanted to harm me as punishment for not staying to endure more of his abuses while supporting him as he negotiated a lesser prison sentence. 

In one of our altercations Ramsey physically attacked me by choking me and kidnapping my son for ransom money. You can imagine my shock because of him filming Eric Garner being murdered in the same way. The night before that attack, Ramsey verbally harassed me for not being able to hold in my urination after driving around for over half an hour looking for parking and then walking blocks trying to reach the apartment on Baruch in record breaking cold. These are only a few of the situations I have dealt with during our marriage. 

I am asking that the movement that has been supporting Ramsey Orta to hold him, and those who knowingly shielded him from any repercussions for his actions, accountable for his domestic actions towards Black Women. I would also like to be able to go through a divorce process without him abruptly being able to stop it. In November of 2019, he backed away from the divorce proceedings, having his attorney tell me that he would be in touch, after I responded that I would want his assistance for long term therapy for my son and I after being exposed to his violence. Help in this area is greatly appreciated as it is more expensive than I can afford as a single mother. 

I also would like the movements, Black Lives Matter, Occupy Oakland, Hands Up Don’t Shoot & I Can’t Breathe, to take action in keeping my son and I safe. I have had to move away from the city far from my friends and family because I feel I am in danger if I were ever to return, especially with him now having access to his welcome home fund, coupled with the blind support of many Black Lives Matter supporters. 

I have been an organizer and given my life to this movement as a Black Woman, and this movement has only stood against me in support of Ramsey Orta. I am asking that this movement consider how it will move forward if it continues to silence Black Women  and overlook the bad action of their heroes. The plausible alternatives for police in handling these kinds of situations moving forward are conversations that I’ve been trying to have for years.

I am not asking for police involvement. If I wanted to handle this with the police, I would have pressed charges on Ramsey but I am adamantly against the continuation of the prison industrial complex. I strongly believe in police abolition but we cannot continue to build a movement in which black women and black children continue to be targets of misogyny in their households. You cannot continue to praise someone for a single action, when they’ve attacked and perpetrated violence towards the most vulnerable people in your community. In order to talk about police abolition we must also talk about the future we wish to replace it with. We will not be able to accomplish that safe future if we don’t hold accountable the actions of individuals that resemble those of the same patriarchal system. 

With love & All Power to the People, 

Bella Eiko”

i just saw this on twitter and i know i reblogged something about him before i knew so please if you can donate to her please do

i just don't like how black women aren't allowed to be introverted. we don't always want to talk and we're not here to entertain

if you’re ever scared you’re not a good person, remember that bad people don’t care about being better 

Care to debate abortion?

Nah